Monday, the 13th of April 2000 and uh 26. I think that in my case, especially when it comes to, you know, my music career, success wears a different t-shirt. In UK popular culture, um, or UK popular rap culture, I'm not entirely certain, um, you know, what I'm, uh, you know, I'm not entirely certain what I'm talking about in terms of like the terminology, but I definitely know what I'm talking about in the instance. Success wears a particular t-shirt, you know, the Rolexes,

Sunday, the 12th of April, 2026. I am going to be honest, right? Uh, the things that we do, the things that we wear, the way that we act, and the way that we put, you know, the way that we want to be portrayed says quite a lot about us. I often go through these reflections when I see people walking by or I see the cars that they drive or the way that they walked or where do they talk. The way they communicate, the people that they choose to surround themselves with, so on a

Saturday, the 11th of April 2026. Um, yeah, man, it's my birthday. I can't lie to you. Uh, and honestly, I'm just basically reflecting over the day and how it was just magnified with so many surprises. I was truly overwhelmed, overwhelmed by the amount of messages that I've gotten, um, you know, honestly, all I want to say is thank you. I'm very grateful to be alive. I'm very grateful to have come such a long way, um, being given, you know, uh, the pleasure as well as the p

Friday, the 10th of April 2026. You know, I was driving around just effectively, like, you know, doing, you know, following my usual routine. And here is something that I've been thinking about as I've been like just, uh, you know, reflecting over like, you know, my career and my trajectory when it comes to music, rap, hip hop, um, you know, and all the things concerning concerning it. Honestly, I am definitely in a different space. I know that I've spoken about this before,

Thursday, the 9th of April 2026. Um, I just literally, I came home from a session with um, LJ uh, earlier this morning.I think it was like something like half, one in the morning, didn't really go to sleep until something like 3 AM. And I've woken up this morning again. I can't remember when, like maybe something at 7 o'clock. And I've been running around. I'm now in the process of like, you know, getting some materials ready to release my song, Roses, is going to be coming

Wednesday, the 8th of April, 2026, yeah. And I'm going to find it really hard to record this reflection without laughing. But, um, I've spoken about this a bunch of times and literally, like, the whole reason why anybody has the time, yeah, or the inspiration to be an artist is because they are in a position to do so. And that is because 100s of 1000s, if not 1000000s of other people, are playing specific roles that gives you the time and the possibility to do what you're doi

Tuesday, the 7th of April 2026. Really and truthfully, what I really want to be able to master is my ability to completely avoid judging people, especially from a biased perspective or from an unnecessarily critical perspective. Whilst it is important for me to be humble, the truth of the matter is, is that I simply lack the knowledge and lack the appreciation to understand the full extent. Um, of somebody's um, inability to meet my standards and expectations. as well as th

Monday the 6th of April 2026. There comes as a point where I have to be very honest with the excuses and the hurdles that I am deliberately putting in front of my own way. So in other words, I'm self-sabotaging. The reason why I say this is because, you know, when I look around, and when I really reflect over the things that I have at my disposal. I don't really think that there are many reasons as to why I cannot forge ahead towards the life that I want for myself. Um, as

Sunday, the 5th of April 2026. Easter Sunday to be, you know, to be exact. And, uh, you know, as I'm sure that right now everybody is effectively, you know, running around, chasing Easter eggs, celebrating the holiday season. I just can't help but, you know, uh, really realise and just, I can't help but appreciate the fact that I'm very, very much in working and doing mode. I'm very, very much looking at what it is that I can do to effectively push myself forward. Because my

Saturday, the 4th of April 2026. Cool. So whilst I was in prison, right? There was an office, so to speak, and this was almost like a hub that you went, you know, you went to when you needed to have access to information. You needed to find, uh, you know, maybe there was something that you needed or maybe there were like certain queries that, um, you wanted to ask. And it was always like a sign, right? It was not necessarily like a sign. There was always something that was

Friday, the 3rd of April 2026. Yesterday, yesterday I was talking about, you know, joy, the accessibility to joy, right? And how I often believed or I spent a very long time believing that joy was only accessible once I obtained success, confidence in all of these things. And as somebody who is effectively guilty of chasing the carrots on the stick or effectively chasing after the shiny things, especially as a, you know, as an avid consumer of many material things. Um, I ha

Thursday, the 2nd of April, 2026. And um, I really want to talk about joy and uh, the access to joy in the context of like, you know, becoming a, a rapper artist, again, the journey that I'm on to effectively pursue my music career. And, you know, when I 1st started out, there were a lot of things, you know, that I looked at, especially when it came to like, you know, the people that I was inspired by when it came to rap and hip hop and all of these things. Um, you know, on

Wednesday, the 1st of April 2026. You know, I had a conversation with a friend of mine. You know, about music because, um, you know, trying to do music is not something that I'm doing in, um, in isolation. There are plenty of people that I know that are effectively trying to do the same thing that I do. And, uh, you know, I was talking to him, and unfortunately, like, you know, his lifestyle is very different to mine. Um, the access that he has to his own time is very differ

Tuesday, the 31st of March 2026. I think is important for me to live in my own truth, especially when it comes to the context of my music career, you know, becoming a rap artist. And the reason for that being is because anything less than the truth, um, into who I am and what I do, is simply not worth the lie, like, you know, lying about it is not worth it. And um, the reason why I say this is because, you know, in other aspects, like, you know, there are, in other career asp

Monday, the 30th of March 2026. You know, uh, having like worked, I suppose, in the music industry, not to say that I've ever had a real job in the music industry, I've just been working to build my own music career. And so I'm traversing in different places, um, across the unit music industry as I just basically build my catalogue, build my network, um, just try to establish myself in whatever way that I can. One of the things that, uh, you know, I'm continuing to learn and

Sunday, the 29th of March 2026. Um, I've been having a pretty good day, if I'm being honest, a little bit behind on engagement, uh, sending, you know, reply, getting back to people's messages. Um, to be honest, getting behind is something that uh, I'm pretty much used to. I can't lie, like, you know, falling behind on certain tasks is something that I'm becoming used to, because it's very natural, considering the fact I have a wide array of different things that I need to do

Saturday, the 28th of March 2026. Rapping is something that I've been wanting to do to do since I was 13 years old, right? But I would say that it was only since the age of 26 when I was really able to get a handle of my own life and really begin to focus and go full steam ahead on the things that I wanted to accomplish within my own rap career. Anytime before that would have been me, you know, just basically putting pen to paper, me coming up with raps, me struggling to find

Thursday, the 27th of March 2026. So, um, being a rapper, being a rap artist, uh, trying to put music together, trying to then package that music, uh, put that music on the platform, promote that music, getting people to care. That is probably like one of the most painful aspects of this journey is getting people to care, finding a way to, you know, short, music is supposed to speak for itself. It's supposed to sound brilliant, be brilliant, so much certain to the point tha

Thursday, the 26th of March 2026. So one of the many tasks that, um, I, it's not necessarily a task that I've fallen massively behind on because it's a task that I've never begun. So when it comes to the music that I have put out there, I believe of the songs that I have out there, there's 10 of them. One of those songs is called BTD. It's supposed to be, it's supposed to be an acronym for behind a deck. And there's a lyric in there, right? And there's a lyric in there. I t

Wednesday, the 25th of March 2026. Um, this reflection I'm going to call confessions of another thinker. Um, if I'm being honest right now, like, uh, if I was to say anything to myself, if I was able to come outside of my own body and speak to myself as my own mentor, I would say to myself to stop obsessing, go over the little things, stop obsessing, go over the outcome. Um, what are these things just induce unnecessary fear and they affect the way that I act, they affect the