Monday, October 12th, 2026. Um, there's a very, um, interesting uh, moment that was captured in video on YouTube via the Brandman Network. These guys are effectively like, you know, a marketing agency. I don't think they go by the Brandman network anymore. the, no labels necessary. And they often talk about this experience as marketing guys, when they're working with artists, when they get, effectively, they prepare them through the game plan, they go through all the necess

Sunday, October the 11th, 2026. As time goes on, I suppose I'm going to have to find a way to let go of people's perceptions and people's opinions of me. Because they aren't, you know, not only are they not a reflection of my capabilities and what it is that I'm able to do. Um, but they're also just, quite frankly, a reflection of how they effectively perceive the world. Um, and I think I need to do this because it's important for me to become less affected. Um, by other peo

Saturday, October the 10th, 2026. So, one of the things that I was thinking about is, um, how different I feel now in comparison to how I felt like, um, I want to say like 15 years ago, essentially like, you know, towards the very early stages when I was essentially like, you know, investing myself into music, into rapping, and all of that stuff. You know, it was a bit of an emotional reflection because right now I do things with the knowledge and with the understanding that

Friday ninth, 2026. So one of the things that is going to be a recurring theme. Um, along my reflections, I'm beginning to realise is effectively my why, your why, and anybody's why. Especially in context of like, you know, this long and uh, very bending, meandering and winding like um, you know, journey towards becoming like, you know, the best rapper artist that I can be as successful as I can be. Um, by my own, like, you know, unique measures and metrics. Like, my why bec

Thursday, October 8, 2026. I think, uh, being a professional musician, rapper in this context, um, you know, behind the scenes, looks very different to the way that the finished product appears to, um, like, you know, the audience, um, on stage, um, on TV, on our mobile phone screens. You know, even in the music itself, like things look very different. And, uh, I am talking particularly about, you know, lifestyle and, you know, what is required in order to be able to delive

Wednesday, October 7, 2026, when I was writing my diary this morning and, um, you know, one thing that effectively came to my mind was, um, you know, the moment where I wrote down how I felt, you know, uncomfortable, um, on a day when I'm supposed to be resting. Like, I was, you know, not really doing anything at all. At a very easy, easygoing, low responsibility, low task, sort of day. And yet, in despite of that, in despite of that, I was still quite restless in my mind,

Tuesday, sixth of um October 2026. And um, later means never. It's becoming more and more apparent to me that, um, like, you know, unless things are being accomplished in the now, like they will never be accomplished. The idea of tomorrow never really exists. Um, by the time that I tell myself that I'm going to do something tomorrow, the likelihood of it never happening just increases tenfold. And so it's very, very important for me to hold myself to a higher standard and to

Monday, the 5th of October 2026. And often at times I have to be willing to push through the flow of my negative thoughts or my negative mind. So what I'm learning and what I'm noticing, as time is going on, is that as real as my mind can feel and as real as my thoughts can feel, right? Uh, they seldom have a um, parallel relationship with my reality. So what it is that I'm trying to say is that, um, as fuzzy and as messy, as noisy, and as dark and as gloomy as things may f

Sunday, the 4th of October 2026. And um, I suppose I did, um, find a point in my journey when I got, um, completely fed up with feeling as though I was just, um, sitting on the sidelines, just, um, watching people either working towards their accomplishments or effectively. like you know, hitting milestone after milestone. and get into certain destinations that I either envied or wanted to be. If I'm being honest, one of the habits that I continuously work to, I suppose, car

Saturday the 3rd of October 2026. And at the moment I'm thinking about the price of laziness. I do want to also take the opportunity to juxtaposition laziness with the word rest, and really begin to characterise the distinction between the two. As I'm doing this, I also want to begin to, I suppose, um, explore the idea of exactly what it is that laziness provides me. What is it that I benefit from being lazy? Because you see, when I think about being lazy, I don't think abou

Friday the 2nd of October 2026. I'm beginning to wonder if peace is something that dwells beyond the door of uncertainty. And perhaps how I hold myself back from traversing through that door, because in the moment that I am, in the moment that I am situated in, in the situation that I am situated in, no matter how uncomfortable, I am certain of the situation. Maybe not exactly comfortable, not exactly safe to be exact, but certain of the situation. Because of that certainty

Thursday, 1 October 2026. Um, it has taken a long time for me to really appreciate the sharp distinction between the artist and the entrepreneur. Um, the different characteristics, um, that basically kind of like create a contrast between the 2 And more importantly, how, you know, especially difficult it is to effectively trade places whenever you're an independent artist. Whenever you are having to effectively oversee or cover a broad spectrum of the work that is necessary

Thursday, the 30th of September 2026. When I was much younger, I never really grasped or appreciated how sensitive I was as an artist. Even when I didn't realise or for the grasp that I was going to be an artist in the 1st place. And, uh, you know, with that being said, you know, growing up with my friends, I found it really difficult to uh, accept the information that I needed to hear, or when a friend was trying to effectively ground me in some sort of reality. Now, this i

Tuesday, the 29th of September 2026. In the context of doing whatever it is that we can in our artistic intent to turn our dreams into a reality. I've come to terms with the notion that we really do create the reasons for and the reasons against doing certain things. irrespective of whether the things that we do, um, aid us or they work against us. We ourselves create the reasons and the line of reasonings behind why we should or shouldn't do them. And I suppose that requi

Monday, the 28th of September 2026. Really and truthfully at the point in time in which I'm recording this reflection, I'm thinking about, um, you know, how uncomfortable, like, uh, my music career is, and uh, I have spoken about um, discomfort being your friend like earlier this week. Um, or a couple of days ago, however you want to, however you want to interpret it. Um, but the key thing that I want to focus on today is the simple fact that as uncomfortable as this is, as

Sunday, the 27th of September, 2026. So, um, I'm starting to rack up quite a bit of a number for myself in terms of like the projects that um, I've worked on and the projects that are in work in progress when it comes to songs. I mean, yesterday I mentioned off the record, I know that I have, I ask myself as another single, I know I've got roses. One of them that I'm thinking of in particular, which is quite fresh. I mean freshly written, still not finished. It's called Peo

Saturday, the 26th of September 2026. One of the lines that I've been reflecting on comes from the song Off the Record. It's currently unofficially released, and it's one of the songs that will feature on the mixtape, the free phases of easy. And the line goes something along the lines of like, um, I was 4 years old when I learned what death was and that God didn't love me. You know, specifically focussing on the lion or the part that says, God didn't love me. You know, I

Friday the 25th of um September 2025. As I begin to think about how artists are stereotypically associated with being sensitive to feedback, and uh, you know, having a particular way of reacting to negative, uh, stimuli or negative emotions. I also begin to juxtaposition that thought and that idea with how, you know, the things that we are often looking for, the things that we often desire. Um, seldom lie in the position of comfort. Uh, and how often at times for the things

Thursday the 24th of September 2026. One of the things that I'm going to be talking about in this reflection is how challenging it is not to move with this sense of urgency, especially because from the perspective of a consumer, uh, which I was for a very long time, looking at hip hop, looking at rap, um, you know, everything essentially felt very, um, everything felt very, uh, not lucid, uh, but lucid for a lack of a better way of putting it. Things felt very cohesive and t

Tuesday, the 23rd of September 2026. Right now, what I'm thinking about is the infinite limitations of my mind. And, uh, essentially how far my mind can go to imagine or create an idea. Um, in the same way that I can look at a cup that is on my desk right now, I can close my eyes and imagine a cup without necessarily materialising or needing to put together. Um, the, uh, the necessary um, physical, biological, uh, chemical, um, requirements or materials to put this cup toget