Confessions of an Over thinker

Wednesday, the 25th of March 2026. Um, this reflection I'm going to call confessions of another thinker. Um, if I'm being honest right now, like, uh, if I was to say anything to myself, if I was able to come outside of my own body and speak to myself as my own mentor, I would

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say to myself to stop obsessing, go over the little things, stop obsessing, go over the outcome. Um, what are these things just induce unnecessary fear and they affect the way that I act, they affect the decisions that I make.

Um, and there are lots of big decisions, middle sized decisions, small, tiny decisions that I'm gonna make throughout the day, some of them involving my friends, my family, and I want to show up in the best way, not just for them, not just for me, but for the future that benefits all of us. Like at the end of the day, life is extremely short. 

Um, even though it feels like, you know, even though it feels like an eternity, get into that end, that secretly we're all wishing for without admitting it to our very conscious self, as much as we fear it, as much as we fear the end. Um, we secretly do want eternal peace. We do want eternal rest. 

We do want to be able to be at peace and not have to struggle so much, you know, and exist in a world of so much suffering. So, with all of that being said, it's just like not worth just living. It's not just worth constantly living in the future, threatening, worrying about things. 

Like, I just need to act. I need to, you know, almost like pull up a sharp with the reality of the fact that things are going to be difficult. It's gonna be hard. 

Um, and it may very well, you know, a lot of the things that I plan and a lot of things that I put to pen. Like, you know, they may not necessarily happen. But, um, You know, I need to live. 

I need to push forward and I need to stop being so afraid of everything. Stop being afraid of my own shadow.