Grinding Through The Day

Sunday, the 5th of April 2026. Easter Sunday to be, you know, to be exact. And, uh, you know, as I'm sure that right now everybody is effectively, you know, running around, chasing Easter eggs, celebrating the holiday season. 

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I just can't help but, you know, uh, really realise and just, I can't help but appreciate the fact that I'm very, very much in working and doing mode. I'm very, very much looking at what it is that I can do to effectively push myself forward. Because my life right now, as much as I'm sure that there are 100s, if not 1000000s of people, that have it worse than me. 

There are things that need to be done. There are places that I need to go, things that I need to do, things that I need to plan for in order to, essentially, like, you know, build a ship that is going to carry my family throughout this crazy journey that we call life. And sometimes I feel far removed from the festivities. 

In fact, like, you know, later on today I'm going to be working from half 4 to half 10. I just cannot, you know, you know, and it's something that to me just feels very important. I know that there's a danger there. 

I know that there's a danger in the sense that I can get so busy, you know, working to live that I forget to live a life at all. But, um, at the same time, like, honestly, I, uh, I'm at this point, and I've always been at this point for quite a while, I guess, that, um, you know, I, I just, I just, if I don't feel comfortable with where I'm at, I see no reason to celebrate. 

Yeah, sure, I might spend a moment to think about, you know, you know, where I'm at, how you know, how grateful I am for being alive, but then after that, it's just straight grinding. 

It's a straight grinding and truth be told, like, you know, my life is so chaotic right now. It's very chaotic, but it's very exciting. It's so exciting. especially when it comes to music, I am so overwhelmed. 

Um, and I never really felt that, I never believed that being overwhelmed was ever going to be a good feeling, but honestly, like it just feels so good right now. It feels amazing. 

And I'm hoping it isn't just me coming off seasonal depression. I really hope it isn't. Like, because, oh, man, there's a part of me that wants this feeling to last forever. 

I know it won't after, you know, I'm a human being, so I will experience the full spectrum of these things, but, you know, what it means to be alive, but yeah, like, you know, I just, I just, I just need to keep, stay focussed and, you know, you know, you know, stay, you know, just, just carry on working because otherwise I get myself stuck in a rut and every day becomes a holiday, unfortunately.