Not Tomorrow

Saturday, the 28th of March 2026. Rapping is something that I've been wanting to do to do since I was 13 years old, right? But I would say that it was only since the age of 26 when I was really able to get a handle of my own life and really begin to focus and go full steam ahead

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on the things that I wanted to accomplish within my own rap career. Anytime before that would have been me, you know, just basically putting pen to paper, me coming up with raps, me struggling to find my flows, me struggling to, um, I suppose find my tone, my voice, my delivery, learning how to finish a song from start to finish and all of these things. Like, and then whilst at the same time trying to fill, you know, fill, fill the boots of an identity that really and truthfully didn't belong to me. 

You know, going to school and going to university for the sake of my, um, you know, for the sake of my, you know, for the sake, for the sake of appeasing my parents rather than me just essentially just following my own career, right? 

And um, Again, like having done this process, I haven't been in this process for the length of time that I've been in. Like, honestly, um, I I've really had to get used to the fact and I still am getting used to the fact. It's not gonna happen overnight. 

It's not going to happen tomorrow, not next week, not next month. Isn't gonna happen in 6 months, not even a year. 

Sure, there's a lot of things can, a lot of things can change dramatically within this time, but that level on that position where I really want to be in, it's just not going to happen overnight. 

There's nothing that I'm gonna do. There's no action that I'm going to take today, right? That is going to miraculously bring all of these things to, you know, all the things that I want, you know, I suppose, the wealth, I suppose, the fame, which these are the things that I equate or the things that I assume I'm going to get when I follow this, you know, when I when I jump into this career and stuff like that. 

These are things that I expect to happen. And or I expect it to happen. And what I'm actually getting in return is something completely different. 

Responsibility, stress, fear, anxiety, imposter syndrome. You know, like, it's not going to happen overnight. It really isn't going to happen overnight. 

I have to be very, very patient and I have to be willing to fail. Lots and lots and lots of times. Get things wrong, lots and lots and lots of times. 

See an opportunity, believe that the opportunity was going to be great and then it actually didn't turn out to be great at all. This is what it means to be in the music business. This is what it means to have a music career and I just have to get used to it.