Wednesday, the 4th of February 2026. Yeah, I'm now in a position where I'm preparing to leave to go to Elephant and Castle for my 1st, you know, for the 1st performance of the year. You know, this is something that I've been prepping for over the past couple of days.  And if I'm being honest, I am feeling like pretty unprepared. This is the most unprepared I've ever felt for anything really and truthfully, which is quite um, uh, I want to say the word unfortunate, but it's no

Tuesday, the 3rd of February 2000 and uh 26. So, um something has come up today. Um, whilst I'm preparing to, um, you know, for this performance that is effectively going to be taking place tomorrow, obviously this is something I've been speaking about.  So, uh, like, you know, yesterday I had a very tiny opportunity to effectively rehearse, uh, the song or kind of like the rap, whatever you want to call it, the song Darkness.  Um, again, very difficult, very intricate, very

Cool. Monday, the 2nd of February 2026. So on Wednesday, I've got this performance.  Um, by the time that this post comes out, I would have already performed it and, uh, you know, I would be reflecting over, you know, what went well, what didn't go well, you know, kind of like, did I do everything that I needed to do to make sure that I got the best out of this event? Now, this performance is taking place at Elephant and Castle.  It's effectively an event that aims to deal or

Sunday, the 1st of February, 2026. As much as I want to be able to live, I also want to be able to grow. Whilst those 2 things can almost be like 2 sides of the same coin, live in and growing.  When I talk about living, right, I'm talking about just merely being able to enjoy the fruits of my labour, not necessarily kind of like putting in effort or kind of like working towards a specific goal, just merely like living and enjoying the present moment.  Growing in essence is al

Okay, Saturday, the 31st of January 2026. So, As I was working downstairs just trying to work my way through the kitchen and just basically  like scrubbing my way through every plate, fork, knife, bottle, baby bottle, um, you know, whatever it is. I was listening to a video that was put together by a neighbourhood arts supply, I believe it is, and it was, I think the title of the video was, if I'm not mistaken, it would have been, I guess the biggest change that is happening

Friday the 30th of January 2026. And uh, given the way that I'm feeling right now, um, I reckon the bare minimum I can do to um, part with this reflection is to kind of like uh, be honest and give away my honesty. Um, you see, often at times, I go quiet, although to be honest, I'm quite as equally often at times, I never shut up. During the periods where I'll go quiet, it seems a bit offensive that I don't talk or explain or try to confront the thing that is bothering me. And

Thursday, the 29th of January 2026. I've been looking at Pomodoro timers. I've been looking at those quite a lot and really looking at boosting my productivity.  So, um, for anybody who doesn't know, like a pomodoro time up, it's essentially like a a timer that you set to basically kind of like complete a given task. Now it's not quite as simple as you have 25 minutes to effectively complete this task, but the whole psychology of it. is that it basically kind of like keeps yo

Okay, cool. Um, a little bit of a personal reflection today. Wednesday, the 28th of January 2026.  And you know what? I genuinely fall out my brain, uh, and my mind specifically, not necessarily in my brain, which is which would be the hardware in this case. Um, you know, I'm talking more about the software, the mind, and what makes up my mind.  I have to admit that my mind often gaslights me into kind of like thinking things that aren't necessarily true, again, fear. Um, has

Tuesday, the, um, 27th of January 2026. You know, I went on a drive earlier today, if I'm being honest, and um, you know, upon my drive, you  know, I was just basically vlogging, and I was just basically saying whatever it was that came to my mind, then honestly speaking, I was ranting quite a lot, and I was ranting about how, um, you know, artists, musicians are always at the bottom of the food chain, the food chain, especially the musicians that want to make it big in the k