Friday, the 13th of um, February 2026 and um, I'm stood outside an hour at the moment, just basically waiting for my wife to kind of like, um, be done with the food shopping.  You know, as I'm looking at this Audi sign, I'm also staring over like this sort of like a hill. like, you know, this hill that's, you know, kind of like close by to the shop and you know what it reminds me of?  It reminds me of this music video that I filmed, this music video that is still raw, unrende

Thursday, the 12th of February 20026. You know, uh, I'm going to be driving out to a location somewhere in Essex and then I'm going to be driving to London. It, um, often reminds me, or at least, uh, what it is that I'm trying to say is that this journey reminds me of um, just how much I'd like to move, movement, motion. These are things that often get me in sync with, it just makes me feel natural. Makes me feel like I'm alive. It makes me feel like, uh, I guess I'm balanced

All right, cool. Wednesday, the 11th of February 2026. And, uh, you know, hmm, you know, there was something that skepta, popular UK rap artist, um, said once before, and uh, the thing is, I was trying to quote him, um, earlier this year, I think, when I was in the process of kind of like selling my, uh, or scrapping my uh, Mercedes C 200 sport, and uh, you know, effectively saying goodbye to that era, transportation for some reason. seems to be something that plays a massive

All right, cool. Tuesday, the 10th of February 2026. Now, for anybody who doesn't know, I like to model the brand that I'm trying to sculpt here, the artist that I'm trying to sculpt here, on the basis of Sigmund Freud's D.I.D. forward slash D.I.D. spelt with capital I.D. full stop or whatever it is. And the reason why I like to model myself on the basis of this model is because you know what? Um, there are multiple intentions. I guess I tend to find that there are multiple i

Okay, cool. So Sunday, the 8th of February 2026. Reality never really plays out the way that you wanted to, to be honest with you.  I'm sure I'm sure that I've spoken on this subject before. But, um, you know, when it comes to, like, you know, my history as a human being, um, you know, a significant chunk of my history as a human being has been dedicated towards immersing myself into video game scenarios, whether it be playing on the PlayStation 2, PlayStation 3, Xbox 360, so

Okay, sorry, Monday, the ninth of February 2026.  You know, when Jesus Christ in the Bible, although if I'm being, you know, 110% sincere with whomsoever finds themselves stumbling on this recording, this reflection, this excerpt of my own thoughts. As a new stick as I may feel at this present moment of time, there is something that is very relevant about, you know, very relevant to my present life, present to the lives that I see in others.  Um, when it comes to kind of like

Saturday the 7th of February 2026 and I'm always apprehensive forward slash scared forward slash fearful of not showing up as the person that I believe myself to be. And really and truthfully, I never really show up as the person that I believe myself to be. I only show up as the closest match to that. And, uh, you know, really and truthfully like whether I'm okay with it, really and truthfully depends on me. It just a decision, a single decision to be like, this is who I am

Friday, the 6th of February 2026 and um, like it's very crazy to think.  It's very crazy to think how much I can notice when I allow myself to slow down. Um, you know, I think I spoke to my daughter today and I think I mentioned something about like, you know, growing and growing isn't something that you do physically is also something that you do mentally.  And even me at my age, you know, am I kind of like adult age, you know? You know, I'm almost scared, like, you know, I'

Okay. Thursday, the 5th of February 2026. And for the 1st time, it's coming up to like, it's just gone past 5 o'clock in the evening.  And I've had a little bit of time, as opposed to reflect, after, you know, kind of like having completed my performance. And, uh, you know, if I'm being sincere with myself, like, you know, I've got a little bit of a mixed bag. There are several aspects of my performance that I'm very proud of.  I'm very happy with, and there are several aspec