Thursday, October 8, 2026. I think, uh, being a professional musician, rapper in this context, um, you know, behind the scenes, looks very different to the way that the finished product appears to, um, like, you know, the audience, um, on stage, um, on TV, on our mobile phone screens. You know, even in the music itself, like things look very different. And, uh, I am talking particularly about, you know, lifestyle and, you know, what is required in order to be able to delive

Wednesday, October 7, 2026, when I was writing my diary this morning and, um, you know, one thing that effectively came to my mind was, um, you know, the moment where I wrote down how I felt, you know, uncomfortable, um, on a day when I'm supposed to be resting. Like, I was, you know, not really doing anything at all. At a very easy, easygoing, low responsibility, low task, sort of day. And yet, in despite of that, in despite of that, I was still quite restless in my mind,

Tuesday, sixth of um October 2026. And um, later means never. It's becoming more and more apparent to me that, um, like, you know, unless things are being accomplished in the now, like they will never be accomplished. The idea of tomorrow never really exists. Um, by the time that I tell myself that I'm going to do something tomorrow, the likelihood of it never happening just increases tenfold. And so it's very, very important for me to hold myself to a higher standard and to

Monday, the 5th of October 2026. And often at times I have to be willing to push through the flow of my negative thoughts or my negative mind. So what I'm learning and what I'm noticing, as time is going on, is that as real as my mind can feel and as real as my thoughts can feel, right? Uh, they seldom have a um, parallel relationship with my reality. So what it is that I'm trying to say is that, um, as fuzzy and as messy, as noisy, and as dark and as gloomy as things may f

Sunday, the 4th of October 2026. And um, I suppose I did, um, find a point in my journey when I got, um, completely fed up with feeling as though I was just, um, sitting on the sidelines, just, um, watching people either working towards their accomplishments or effectively. like you know, hitting milestone after milestone. and get into certain destinations that I either envied or wanted to be. If I'm being honest, one of the habits that I continuously work to, I suppose, car

Saturday the 3rd of October 2026. And at the moment I'm thinking about the price of laziness. I do want to also take the opportunity to juxtaposition laziness with the word rest, and really begin to characterise the distinction between the two. As I'm doing this, I also want to begin to, I suppose, um, explore the idea of exactly what it is that laziness provides me. What is it that I benefit from being lazy? Because you see, when I think about being lazy, I don't think abou

Friday the 2nd of October 2026. I'm beginning to wonder if peace is something that dwells beyond the door of uncertainty. And perhaps how I hold myself back from traversing through that door, because in the moment that I am, in the moment that I am situated in, in the situation that I am situated in, no matter how uncomfortable, I am certain of the situation. Maybe not exactly comfortable, not exactly safe to be exact, but certain of the situation. Because of that certainty

Thursday, 1 October 2026. Um, it has taken a long time for me to really appreciate the sharp distinction between the artist and the entrepreneur. Um, the different characteristics, um, that basically kind of like create a contrast between the 2 And more importantly, how, you know, especially difficult it is to effectively trade places whenever you're an independent artist. Whenever you are having to effectively oversee or cover a broad spectrum of the work that is necessary

Thursday, the 30th of September 2026. When I was much younger, I never really grasped or appreciated how sensitive I was as an artist. Even when I didn't realise or for the grasp that I was going to be an artist in the 1st place. And, uh, you know, with that being said, you know, growing up with my friends, I found it really difficult to uh, accept the information that I needed to hear, or when a friend was trying to effectively ground me in some sort of reality. Now, this i