Cool. Monday, the 2nd of February 2026. So on Wednesday, I've got this performance. Um, by the time that this post comes out, I would have already performed it and, uh, you know, I would be reflecting over, you know, what went well, what didn't go well, you know, kind of like, did I do everything that I needed to do to make sure that I got the best out of this event? Now, this performance is taking place at Elephant and Castle. It's effectively an event that aims to deal or

Sunday, the 1st of February, 2026. As much as I want to be able to live, I also want to be able to grow. Whilst those 2 things can almost be like 2 sides of the same coin, live in and growing. When I talk about living, right, I'm talking about just merely being able to enjoy the fruits of my labour, not necessarily kind of like putting in effort or kind of like working towards a specific goal, just merely like living and enjoying the present moment. Growing in essence is al

Okay, Saturday, the 31st of January 2026. So, As I was working downstairs just trying to work my way through the kitchen and just basically like scrubbing my way through every plate, fork, knife, bottle, baby bottle, um, you know, whatever it is. I was listening to a video that was put together by a neighbourhood arts supply, I believe it is, and it was, I think the title of the video was, if I'm not mistaken, it would have been, I guess the biggest change that is happening

Friday the 30th of January 2026. And uh, given the way that I'm feeling right now, um, I reckon the bare minimum I can do to um, part with this reflection is to kind of like uh, be honest and give away my honesty. Um, you see, often at times, I go quiet, although to be honest, I'm quite as equally often at times, I never shut up. During the periods where I'll go quiet, it seems a bit offensive that I don't talk or explain or try to confront the thing that is bothering me. And

Thursday, the 29th of January 2026. I've been looking at Pomodoro timers. I've been looking at those quite a lot and really looking at boosting my productivity. So, um, for anybody who doesn't know, like a pomodoro time up, it's essentially like a a timer that you set to basically kind of like complete a given task. Now it's not quite as simple as you have 25 minutes to effectively complete this task, but the whole psychology of it. is that it basically kind of like keeps yo

Okay, cool. Um, a little bit of a personal reflection today. Wednesday, the 28th of January 2026. And you know what? I genuinely fall out my brain, uh, and my mind specifically, not necessarily in my brain, which is which would be the hardware in this case. Um, you know, I'm talking more about the software, the mind, and what makes up my mind. I have to admit that my mind often gaslights me into kind of like thinking things that aren't necessarily true, again, fear. Um, has

Tuesday, the, um, 27th of January 2026. You know, I went on a drive earlier today, if I'm being honest, and um, you know, upon my drive, you know, I was just basically vlogging, and I was just basically saying whatever it was that came to my mind, then honestly speaking, I was ranting quite a lot, and I was ranting about how, um, you know, artists, musicians are always at the bottom of the food chain, the food chain, especially the musicians that want to make it big in the k

Okay, Monday, the 26th of January, 2026. Just completing my run. Yeah, that's right. I started running. To be honest, it's something like, you know, that I have been doing for a while. I was doing it a lot when I was in prison. Um, tried to kind of like carry on after leaving prison in 2020. Um, kind of like tried to continue that during COVID times, but that never really bared through, to be honest. And since then I haven't gone back to it. So I've been gearing myself up to

Sunday the 25th of January 2026. And uh, 1st time recording an reflection in a very, very long time, didn't think I was actually going to get back to it at one point if I'm being honest, because the overwhelming amount of catching up that I've got to do is MMS. But, you know, like, uh, I've been doing it for so long and uh, you know, for me to actually kind of like, you know, just quit and give up and nah, it's just, I don't want to say that it's not my style. It's just like