Calmness Reigns Supreme

Thursday, the 5th of March, 20026. And if I'm being honest, right now, I'm just in this. I've been, you know, for the entirety of the day, I suppose, I've been, for the most part, in this state of calm. 

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You know, I'm pretty, like, even right now, I'm not going to talk about majority of the day. I'm just going to talk about right now. Right now, I'm just feeling really calm, to be honest with you. 

And here's the strange thing. Um, because there is nothing calm about, you know, my life at the moment. Things are, you know, I wouldn't say extremely hectic, but definitely say that they're very hectic. 

With my personal life, with my music life, with everything that I've got going on, it feels like, you know, for some reason, like this sense of calm film, I feel suspicious about how calm I'm currently feeling. 

But I have been making changes in my life. I have been doing little things here and there and I've been going, you know, you know, for a lack of a better way of, you know, saying it, you know, I've been going through a transformation and maybe I'm starting to reap the results and I guess part of those results is just basically being calm about the situation that I'm in right now. 

And, um, you know, what lesson and what takeaway, you know, do I have, you know, kind of throw away like, you know, what can I say to the world? You know, that may maybe listening to this. 

I suppose, like, I suppose fear, anxiety, like these are emotions that I genuinely thought were, I overestimated how useful, you know, complaining, how useful anxiety, um, fear, and how useful, I suppose, negative thinking was, like it really, really, really doesn't help at all. 

And what helps is just either accepting the situation for what it is or doing something about it. You know, and nothing is really as it seems. Like, nothing is as bad as it seems. 

Time is a healer of so many wounds that sometimes the solution is just waiting or giving your goal, like a specific, like, just give it, just have it in patience with it. And it is weird. It's weird. 

I, I genuinely, you know, I, I, if I'm being honest, I am, you know, sat at a park and the sun is shining and maybe like, you know, I'm, I'm coming out of this, um, you know, coming out of like seasonal depression. 

But if I'm being honest, I hope it isn't that. I hope that it's genuinely like, you know, the things that I've been doing to effectively just improve my mental health and stuff. 

So, um, apart from that, yeah, I guess like when it comes to it, fear is not as useful as I thought. Neither is anxiety, stress, or complaining about much in life.