Obsessed With Communications

Monday the 23rd of March 2026. I, um, you know, if there is ever a reason why I ever became obsessed with communications, social transactions, the things that people often don't really pay attention to, um, doesn't even sit in the back of their mind, is because I used to watch my

parents argue all the time.

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I never really recognised any, um, you know, positive resonance, any really, any good communication happening between the 2 of them, and that really affected me as a child growing up. 

If I'm being honest, I'm a little embarrassed to admit how much I wanted them to stay together and how hard it was for me to deal with the fact that they eventually separated and now to this day, um, have a very difficult time recognising each other's innocence, recognising each other's, um, you know, uh, compassion and love for one another. 

Um, this is something that I experience quite, um, you know, I'm very alone in this experience, which is quite, um, if I'm being honest, it's quiet. It's quite, um, uh, I think the word that it, it could be quiet, puzzling, it can be very confusing, uh, because it's almost like the only person who is aware of their compassion and empathy for one another is myself. 

They're not aware of their own compassion and empathy for themselves, because they are too overshadowed, I suppose, by their own differences and their own inability to really communicate. 

And whilst I do, whilst I will admit that communication is a 2 way street, it requires 2 people to communicate. 

At the same time, it's also very important to learn how to interpret. 

And, uh, you know, learn how to really understand and show. Like, you know, the, I think, I think, I think the, the failure in communication, you know, is never going to be a 50-50 thing. Sometimes it swings to the left and sometimes it swings to the right, but ultimately it does take 2 to tango. 

And, you know, I've been obsessed with communications ever since, um, because that's how things go wrong. Thats our friendships and and that's how sadness overwhelms the earth.