Grateful For Another Week

Sunday, the 22nd of March 2026. You know, I'm grateful for another week, especially during these, um, terrible times that we're currently living in, uh, even though if I'm being honest, as terrible as it may seem, it could, it's still, you 

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know, there is no bottom floor to how badly, you know, it could get, you know, as my father always used to say, you know, it can, uh, you know, it can always, it can always be worse. If I'm being sincere. 

If I'm being sincere, I'm quite, um, you know, this is the thing that I want to part with. you know, as a way to end a week, I suppose. 

Really and truthfully, like when I was much younger and I didn't have any children, I didn't fear death so much because, um, my life didn't feel that significant. 

Sure, I was a son to some. Sure, I was a brother to some and a friend to some, but reading and truthfully, like, you know, the pain is only temporary. The grief is only temporary. 

Eventually, everything will fade away and it really won't matter. Even it won't matter. But, uh, you know, and whilst the same thing can be applied to the same idea could be applied to my wife and children, it's very difficult to watch these little faces grow old or getting older, right? You know, they're becoming, you know, young people, young adults in the room, right? 

And It's very hard, you know, to, you know, to, to, to, to, uh, user, to hover over the idea that anything bad could happen to me, and if anything bad happens to me, like, you know, their future is massively affected. 

And so that kind of, like, makes me very vulnerable. It's a, it's a very, very strange, it's a very strange feeling considering how, you know, how, how, how much I embrace death and how much I embrace the end. 

But um, it definitely gives me a reason to be alive. It gives me a reason to stay alive and it gives me a reason to feel human, to fear, just like any father would.