Who Truly Dwells Within?

I’ll start off by expressing my wish for the ideal structure of my daily reflections. Due to the nature of being overly analytical about pretty much everything, I decided that the best course of action would be for me to just start writing, start editing, and start positing. Up until now I haven’t focused a great deal of thought towards the structure of what I’m writing about, and this is the reason why I’ve shied away from things that are a little dark; one of these things being my identity. 

Whilst things have been going great, and I’m accustoming myself to the reality that I’m the one who decides whether I’m having a great day or not, some things from my former life have been peaking in and out of my brief moments of day to day reflections. 

As much as I have set myself on this planet to express my good intentions, I find it difficult to argue that my expressions are in anyway pure or without self interest. 

In my past I have suffered with the notion of sticking around to see how the world continues to spin because I easily grew apathetic when I wasn’t able to manifest my own ideal reality. The truth is that ability to grow apathetic is still there. I have tried to grow in a manner that allows me to act as least often as possible in this way, but the sad truth is that sometimes I simply don’t want to. The best thing I can do is manoeuvre away from the things and the people this hunger can hurt. The road of the ambitious artist has never been for the feint hearted.