When The Going Gets Tough

All right, Friday the 30th of May 2025 and you know yeah man when the going gets tough you know I feel like that sentence right there doesn't really need to be finished it's a very common it's a very common phrase you know one of the things that I really wanted to talk

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about is the fact that I think at some point I stopped feeling sorry for myself. This isn't to say that I don't have moments where I kind of like, you know, look, look at the world, look at the universe and ask why, kind of like adopt a little bit of a victim mentality.

You know, because I, you know, I have moments like that a lot. But in terms of like my actions, I'm always looking at what to kind of like do next in order to pull myself out of like difficult situations. And when it comes to my actions, I like to think and I like to believe that I stopped feeling sorry for myself. So if anything, I'm looking to put myself

into the deep end, right? The deep end. And I just want to be able to stew in the deep end. It's kind of like metaphorical for me to say that. I don't mind, you know, disappearing for an entire year and miss out on birthdays, miss out on Christmas, miss out on grateful events.

I really, really don't mind doing that. Which is why it kind of like makes it difficult for me to kind of like stomach when like, my life is no longer as simple as it used to be, like in a sense of like where, I was solely myself. I was just me, like, you know, a single young man, you know, now that I'm a father, now

that I'm a husband and stuff like that, like I'm no longer just me. I am me and I am also my family and my family is also me. You know, we are all one. And unfortunately, you know, as much as I like to think that I've stopped feeling for myself, sorry for myself that I want to do the hard work because the hard work is what's going to give me the results that I want for me to live a prosperous and a joyful life. You know, like, you know,

I'm not the I'm not solely it's not just me that you know, I'm not, it's not just me that feel, it's not just me that kind of like, there are other, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't, like again, it's not just me that has, in other words, like unfortunately, the same doesn't apply to everybody.

Not to everybody in my family. Like, you know, unfortunately, I have to share kind of like my identity and share my characteristics with somebody who doesn't have the same characteristics and the same identity as me, who is probably at like a different stage in their life.

And that's what sucks because I want to burn. I want to burn out, crash out.

I want to go through the difficult to burn out, crash out.

I want to go through the difficult stuff and have the headaches, but, you know, you know, I guess I'm affected. I'm affected by, you know, I'm affected by others, you know, people in my family who just seek comfort, you know, from the storm, when really and truthfully, you know, people in my family who just seek comfort, you know, from the storm, when really and truthfully, I just want chaos all the time.