What Do I Do?

Sunday the 20th of July 2025 and you know I'm asking myself like you know what do I do and how do I live when I'm not living in my ideal reality I feel like the answer to that question is probably more important than what do I want my ideal life to be because if I'm being

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honest like my ideal or anybody's ideal really and truthfully right is always going to be ever so slightly harder to accomplish than what life is without having

to try anything without having to change anything without having to do anything like you know you know I feel like that you know sometimes I ask myself whether it whether it's easier to again you know you know gain fulfillment, purpose with the reality that I have set as it is, or whether it is worthwhile trying to create a reality that is very, you know, that is very, you know,

that is very demanding when it comes to the amount of energy, focus, and thoughts that is required, so to speak, whether it is financial, circumstantial, situational, whether it's location-based, whether it's mental-based based and all of this stuff. Like, you know, I'm asking myself that because again,

like, you know, this week has just been absolutely insane. And I'm continuously learning that, you know, you know, learning that, you know, especially what I'm learning right now is that I'm having to learn how to survive in a situation that is really, really not my ideal.

And it's very hard to wrap my head around really and truthfully. That's why I'm asking myself this question because I feel like at the moment, the answer to the question, you know, how do I survive without my ideal? It's probably more beneficial than the answer to the question, what do I want my ideal life to be? And why do I want to live it? And why is it important? All of these questions, like, you know, they're not as important of me, you know, as me having to figure out how do I live and how do I find joy, happiness, peace?

All of the things that I want, that I attach to my ideal situation without that ideal situation, so to speak. And yeah, that's just basically like