This Obsession

Monday the 8th of July 2024 and the theme of today's reflection is going to be obsession. I recall kind of like you know this scene from an Assassin's Creed game when you know where the main protagonist was basically sailing headfirst towards this island. He had an obsession.

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He genuinely believed that he was going to find something that he was desperately looking for. despite the fact that there were plenty of waves crashing into his ship, almost causing him to capsize and perish at sea. I liken this idea and I liken this scenario to like plenty of the scenarios that many of us as artists, you know, many of us as artists find

ourselves in. We, we dream about kind of like, you know, this big moment or this big day where we basically break free from the shackles of our mundane reality and into this newfound reality where we have a notoriety to a certain degree, we have an insurmountable degree of respect for our talent and effectively we become superstars. this entirely I'm not sure but you know I you know it's something that I'm quite puzzled by and it's something that I'm very curious about because like in the process of me becoming you know the person that I am today becoming the

artist that I wish to become tomorrow I am slowly but surely beginning to you know kind of like synthesize or to kind of like it's a symbiosis to a certain degree. I'm beginning to connect with the reality of what that superstardom is going to look like even if, even in the chances where I do get that superstardom,

if that makes any sense at all. And effectively what it is that I'm trying to say is that like, you know, these preconceived notions, these preconceived obsessions and ideas, like are always far more kind of like you know colorful and far more vibrant and far more um i want to even go as far as using the word erotic and using the word um uh there's there's

another word i think that word is um euphoric euphoric if that's even a word like you know they are far more euphoric in our minds than they are in reality and uh it's interesting to see how these obsessions kind of like affect us as individuals how they effectively just like have this hold over us to the point in which we become so neurotic we have such a terrible relationship with reality that we effectively start to kind of like self-destruct and you know create a lot of damage around us if that makes sense like this is why plenty of us like you

know plenty of artists that have come before us, you know, musicians, singers, songwriters, dancers, all, you know, a lot of us seem to have like a pretty terrible relationship with like drugs and alcohol, sex and all of these other things and stuff like that. It's interesting to say the least. I guess I'm beginning to come into this kind of like realization that perhaps what this dream actually is and what it's going to be if I do get it and if I do put my mind, everything in my mind forward towards this dream. It's not going to be like how I've imagined it at the very least. I was kind of supposed to talk a little bit

about marketing and how I'm going to use my skill as an artist to kind of like become one of the best kind of like marketers around my area but like yeah it's just uh it is I guess I kind of like ended up talking about something else but yeah like this is my reflection on today.