The Way I’ve Always Been

Saturday, the 14th of March, 2026. When I was at university at one point, I would often talk about certain things, especially like in group projects or even when I'm working on my own projects. 

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I will talk about things in a pretty passionate way, especially ideas, things that would be great for the group or things that will be great for the project. 

And, uh, I would often feel, I'd often leave certain group meetings feeling misunderstood, uh, based on the feedback that's being given or the feedback that isn't being given at all or how the idea is being dismissed.

 And then I would go off and then I'd execute the idea and then I'd come back and then, you know, I would release the idea and then that idea would translate into a very brilliant grade is actually what happened with my final year university project, right? 

And uh, I want to say that it taught me a lesson, but what it really did, you know, what those moments really did was, um, they reminded me of this very painful, um, essence that I'm going to go through in my journey and I'm going through that journey now. 

And it's just, you know, I have to get comfortable with being misunderstood. I have to get comfortable with people not believing me, right? 

And not even get offended by the fact that people don't believe in me really and truthfully because as a visionary, as somebody who is able to picture a specific outcome and then obsess myself with the technicality of how I'm going to bring that outcome into reality. 

It is something that I just undergo whether it is, I do it on my own, whether it is, I do it in my own way. It is something that other people, no matter how well I articulate it, might not be able to experience until they see the final result, and then I will get the praise for the things that I've done. 

And so it's a, it's definitely something that requires me to really ground myself and, you know, be comfortable with just being misunderstood and not really having the best, you know, belief from other people, if that makes sense.