The Shadow Self

Monday the 14th of April 2025 and I've learned something about the shadow self right but without going into too many extreme details in essence like you know apparently I'm always at war with the version of me that very much wants to stay the same or even worse wants to

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revert back to You know kind of like it's toxic old ways or it's kind of like non-beneficial old ways or it's you know whatever is that you want to talk about and You know like I

Definitely kind of like, um, you know in like I definitely kind of like, you know, in the practical sense, I can, I can definitely kind of like, attest to that if that makes any sense, because really and truthfully, it's like, you know, like it's, and again, it's, it's one of the things, I guess it's one of the aspects of reality that, you know, I guess people in general, kind of like going through

a growth journey won't ever really talk about, especially when they're sharing their testimonies. They'll talk about how great it is and how beneficial it is and how nice it feels. But even to just be able to sustain that new version of yourself, like there's always going to be a struggle between the things that you're doing to effectively kind of like, you know,

make positive changes in your life and kind of like gain great benefits in your life and then maintaining that, you know, and kind of like abstaining from the aspects about, you know, your old self that effectively like are so toxic and stuff like that.

And I often feel like the old version of me just sometimes kind of like, you know, clawing back for, you know, for authority because it's just comfortable. It's easy. I don't have to do anything, but the truth of the matter is,

is that I can't afford to stay disabled fortunately. Because being the person that I was yesterday isn't good enough. Can't withstand and can't meet the demands of the person that I need to be today or tomorrow.