The Perfect Contrast

Yeah man, Tuesday the 15th of July 2025 and you know there's apathy right? There's feeling like you know like I'm not gonna make it, feeling like I'm useless, feeling like you know like I wasn't really made for this, feeling like I wasn't naive, like I was a fool for thinking that I was

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gonna become successful, kind of like in this avenue of kind of like creating a rap career, becoming famous. I felt like, you know, there are days where I feel like that and there are days like today where I feel superhuman, where I feel capable of accomplishing this goal, where I don't feel quite like a fool. I actually feel very informed. Um, you know, I feel very informed. I feel, you know, I feel like, uh, I understand the assignment. I understand the situation. I understand what needs to be done. I have more than what I need to be able to kind of like

execute the things that I need to do on a daily basis to inch myself forward towards the place that I want to be in the future, in the next six months, in the next five years, right? At the end of the day, like one of the things that I'm grateful for

is the fact that, you know, I am doing, I am taking this as seriously as I need to take it in order to get the results that I'm effectively looking for. At the end of the day, the passion really drives me. The passion really, really, really drives me to effectively be here. And the thought of doing something

that I'm not passionate about frightens me so much so that it creates this desperation. And it's desperation that in some cases can become very toxic if I'm not careful but other times it's just a firm reminder that where I'm going and what I'm doing I need to become that person like it's very very important like my life literally relies on you know me being successful from this, me being happy from

this like not just taking into consideration my ability to live off of my passion, but just effectively just kind of like having a reason to live and just having something that really speaks to me and speaks to people that need it overall.