The Measurement Of Desire

One of the greatest measurements of desire has to be the things that you're willing to do for the sake of the things that you want. Growing up aspiring to be a rap artist and becoming one of the greatest rap artists I will ever recognize actually runs far deeper than what I can

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possibly imagine and definitely further than what I would have imagined growing up in my youth. It's surprising to think that now, the point in which I'm at in my life is a point so ridiculous

that it seems futile for me to push forward and dedicate my time and my life into this dream, into one day sharing a stage with thousands of people in audience or in spectation, if that's even a word. You know, sharing some of my most intimate and sharing one of my most passionate expressions

through a microphone as the music is just blaring through the speakers. This is a very difficult thing to achieve, especially at the scale within which I imagine accomplishing this dream. It's particularly difficult because a lot of there are a lot of moving cogs and mechanisms that need to be figured out. Of course, the formula is there.

It has been done before. But in order to put that machine together, especially from the perspective of an independent artist, is far easier said than done. Apart from that there are also so many obstacles and many of those obstacles are basically basically placed in the life that I am trying I guess to live in accordance to you know the family that requires me each and every single day. I also have a social life a social life

that I guess isn't particularly attuned to the experience and the journey that I am trying to fulfill. And I tend to find that these two particular factors always seem to get in the way. And they get in a way in an extraordinary way, they get in a way in a very relentless way. And often at times I'm left with maybe about 20 minutes to dedicate myself towards my business, towards my entrepreneurial journey as an aspiring rap artist. And yet I find myself still wanting to push forward.

Even on the days when I feel completely exhausted, when I feel angry, frustrated, when I want to throw everything away, still I look at that shiny object in the distance and I want to continue to push forward, I want to reach out with both my arms and I want to keep on going until I'm clutching to what feels like has belonged to me for my entire freaking life. These are the true measurements of desire. These are the true things that tell me

just how badly I actually want something. And to be honest with you, I have a dream. I do have a vision. And I do pay attention to that vision every single day. When I'm listening to music, when I'm writing music down, when I'm thinking about the person

that I want to be in the next 10 or 20 years, there is nothing that I want more in this life than to become the person I have always believed myself to be.