Sometimes I feel Like A Fraud

Right, Thursday the 19th of June 2025 and if I'm being honest I don't really know what to say. I feel like a little bit of a fraud if I'm being honest. You know as somebody who's a rap artist right it often feels like you know if I'm not rapping if I'm not putting music out like I'm not

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effectively an artist but even worse is still like if I'm not rapping and if I'm not putting my music out then I'm not making any progress at all and that's not really a very comfortable space to be in. Like it becomes

a little bit dangerous emotionally to navigate because it's I mean I mean it almost feels like I'm going to be talking about two things at the same time but in essence for for, you know, for, I guess for progress and for performance, kind of like being okay with the fact that I'm not putting music out and I'm not rapping is a bad thing. But at the same time, kind of like, you know,

being okay with the fact that I'm not putting out music as much as I want to, I'm not rapping as much as I want to, is a good thing for the sake of kind health. Because otherwise, again the solution is very simple, just basically start rapping and put out more music. But I'm in a position where that isn't as simple because I'm committed to my family. The family that is underneath my wing. And unfortunately, if anything, if I fail in that aspect of my life then I often fear and worry that something bad will

happen to my family so it's kind of like is the choice between being a failing rapper or being a failing husband and a father you know I don't know I don't know how many people I don't know how many people will choose to kind of let be you know to fail at the freaking former as opposed to the latter, but you know, here we are. So the basics of it is that, you know,

sometimes I do feel like a fraud. I feel like I'm putting out, you know, kind of like I'm doing whatever it is that I can to kind of like stay, have some relevance, although in relative to people that are very successful, it's no relevance at all and sometimes I do wonder whether I should call it quits, whether I should just basically accept that this is where I am, this is where I'm going to be

and I'm not going to go any further but you know I could talk about this way more at length and I probably should do like a whole video on this but unfortunately like here I am for now just kind of like coping with everything.