Not For This

Monday 12th of May 2025 and here's another thing that I need to remind myself of on a continuous basis. Not so much because it's a good habit but pretty much because there's enough substantial evidence to just basically kind of like qualify it as the truth and the mere

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fact of it is is that I need to remind myself that the music that I created, the art that I have created wasn't created for it to just sit on the shelf. That's kind of like metaphorical for I didn't

just put it, you know, I didn't just create it to keep it to myself. I created it to be shared and be shared vastly and abundantly with the whole world. The truth of the matter is, and I've been talking about this, fame is something that I hunger for. I have a message or a series of messages, some of which I'm not really sure of,

which is kind of like one of the counterintuitive, this is why sometimes it feels counterintuitive, but I didn't create what I have created and what I continue to be in the process of creating for it to just kind of like sit on a shelf, never to be heard.

That's why it's never going to feel like success until I have put it out there officially and kind of like with certainty and with kind of like you know with certainty and with kind of like you know with authority so to speak. You know whatever that means and how that ever gets constituted kind of like across

you know well however that comes however that's constituted in a real-life setting like you know because I guess I'm speaking from an abstract point of view I don't know you know you know what does it mean to be heard you know for my music to be heard by 2,000 people 4,000 people from London in London in America in Europe whatever that is I know that you know it isn't just supposed to be sitting in my laptop it's meant to be heard far and wide you know yeah just basically gonna

finish it off by saying that you know i for some reason it feels it's counterintuitive because i don't know what it is that i am trying to say i really don't but i know that for a very very long time i have felt this strong sensation this uncomfortable sensation of something that i just literally want to scream and i want to be heard. I don't just want to be feel heard. I just don't want to feel heard. Just, I don't want to just feel heard. I want to be heard like abundantly,

substantially, like, you know, without a shadow of a doubt, with absolute certainty.