Not Easy To Be With

Tuesday the 26th of August 2025 and If I mean if I'm gonna be honest about the way that I'm feeling right now I'll put it this way. I'll put it this way Not everybody would be happy with what it is that I have to think of what it is that I have to say right now in the present moment but

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Again, I'll talk about it again Like, you know when it comes to like the pillars of life and the pillars of life is just a random You know kind of like theme that I've pulled out of you know out of thin air, but I think that there is a Valuable I guess lesson in learning how to live in with yourself and then 

learning how to live with others I believe that in the beginning we learn how to live with ourselves and because we learn who we are and what we are and As time goes on we learn how to live with others There's still like an element of you know Learning how to live with others in the beginning because of course we learn how to live with our families But again, there's a difference between live living with your family and living with people that don't originate from you I don't come from that same like bloodline so to speak and there's you know Differences in opinion difference in cultures 

difference in values like right now that's why I'm really struggling with if I'm being honest because the way that I Experience existences, of course, um, you know It depends on the way that I view the world and the way that I see the world The way that I survive depends on the way that I see the world as well my experiences the things that have hurt me in the past have a You know kind of like have an effect on how I perceive the world And for the most part it becomes difficult to live with other people because for the most part Like for the most part I'm here, you know trying to effectively optimize, you know the way that I live so that you know, I Accept that while suffering is 

inescapable. I don't go out of my way to put more suffering on my plate And right now it just feels like I'm suffering way more than what I've bargained for Like I didn't wish I didn't wish that I had this amount of suffering in my life And so I'm trying to find ways to effectively kind of like come to terms with that Whilst at the same time trying to look for ways forward and ways out of my current situation