Never How You Want It

Okay, cool. So Sunday, the 8th of February 2026. Reality never really plays out the way that you wanted to, to be honest with you. 

2:15

I'm sure I'm sure that I've spoken on this subject before. But, um, you know, when it comes to, like, you know, my history as a human being, um, you know, a significant chunk of my history as a human being has been dedicated towards immersing myself into video game scenarios, whether it be playing on the PlayStation 2, PlayStation 3, Xbox 360, son, and so forth. 

I have always embodied the character that has been designed by some sort of like tech geek that allows me to effectively kind of like, um, you know, uh, I suppose, impose my will on um, different MPCs all over the different map and stuff like that. 

And the thing about reality that really frustrates me, I suppose, and this is our guest, maybe perhaps the effect of long-term gaming, is the expectation that things are going to play out my way. 

The things are going to play out exactly how I, how I have planned. Now, when it comes to like plans in general, you know, one thing that you always want to plan for is planning for things not going according to plan, but even with that knowledge, even with that, um, kind of like mode of insight, there is always like this almost like, um, this element of surprise when things don't go in, you know, in accordance to my way. 

Um, you know, like I, I, you know, for example, like, you know, I'm currently like in the process of trying to like return my house to the state that allows me to think clearly, to see things clearly, to discern. rather than to judge or to be angry. 

Um, you know, I'm trying to be in the process of kind of like returning the house to its former glory, you know, the less mess, the less clutter, the more things are in place. you know, the higher the likelihood I'm going to be able to just keep on top of everything and stuff like that. 

And it never plays out that way, no matter how hard I try, I always tend to find myself in a position where things are very difficult. 

Things are very disorganised and, you know, often at times I sit the right thing to myself, man. How am I supposed to kind of like keep the thing going? Like, you know, how am I supposed to kind of like, you know, negotiate this everlasting kind of like dance battle with reality?