Never An Easy Choice

Alright, Sunday I think the 2nd of February 2025 and it was never an easy choice. Like I was always, you know when it came to kind of like becoming a rap artist and I'm going to talk about this till the day 

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I'm blue in the face, but I knew I wanted to be an artist ever since I was 13 years old. It's not even the fact that I knew I wanted to be, I knew I needed to be for myself, for my own sake, for my sanity, for everything, you know, because of everything that was going on around, you know, around me at the time, I knew I needed to be an artist. And, you know, that need and that desire was misunderstood for the most part, ignored for the most part, not acknowledged for the most part. I try to be as grateful as I can and kind of like be appreciative of the fact that in despite of that I was loved, my parents did love me, my parents do love me, but they were never really able to understand this insatiable desire and it was never an easy option because I always had to choose.

It was either I had to choose myself or choose the desire of my parents, choose the desire of my culture, choose the desire of my God. This made me a very bitter and a very angry and a very confused and a very, I guess, dysfunctional human being. It made me a horrible person to be around. And the funny thing is that I was actually a very lovely person to be around, but I would use what was lovely around me to keep people around me because whenever they needed, whenever people needed that loveliness for me, I would use that and hold it against them for ransom, rather than just giving it out freely.

And, you know, I don't wanna kinda like turn myself into a victim because at the end of the day you know it doesn't even matter how young I was always conscious of my own choices and my own decisions it was never an easy choice and this time around I wanted to be a very easy nonchalant very no-brainer choice however at the same time I do feel like I am at war with the status quo the status quo to stay poor to tell poor people that you know that they are good poor that they will never be good doing anything else and you know I'm surrounded by that I am influenced by that you know it's very difficult to kind of like go against the grain like human beings like to follow one another like that's how human beings function and they like to be you know human beings that's how they function in that sense so going against what is you know what is agreed upon is very very difficult and that's what makes it challenging about you know choosing success rather than just choosing to stay the same in this day and age. So yeah with all of that being said you know it was never an easy choice.