My Own Music

Thursday the 6th of February 2025 and I never really used to enjoy my music funny enough like um there was somebody that I had a conversation with not too long ago and You know he knew that I was making music he knew that I was a rap artist and one day he saw me just

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bopping my head along to like a song and You know he was a bit of a comedian a comedian. He was very very funny guy. He is a funny guy I don't know why I'm talking about him in the past tense you my childhood. Let's say for example, songs like Always on Time, one of my favourite songs and it's a song that's so delicious and it's so sweet, I could listen to that song all day long.

And it makes me wonder, wow, did the creators and the composers of this song actually enjoy this song as I enjoy this song? Or is it just kind of like a different experience for them? And at first, I felt that maybe I shouldn't enjoy my own music or effectively in other words turn up to my own music in the same way that other people kind of like party to my music. I shouldn't do that because that would be a little bit of like you know it's a bit egoic, it's a

bit of like ha ha ha like you know look at me just dancing to my own music and stuff like that. It's a bit kind of like you know other people are meant to believe that it's brilliant and I'm just supposed to have like this sort of like indifference to it but I feel like as of late I'm not gonna lie I genuinely feel like you know I just cannot see a reason why I shouldn't enjoy my own music do you know I mean it's just one of those things that you know at first it's a little bit weird but after a while especially when you get good at it

it becomes very difficult not to bop you know not to bop your own head to your own song and stuff like that so yeah I just thought it was an interesting food for thought.