Miscommunication

Alright, Saturday the 4th of January, I think I've been getting these dates wrong, but it's like Saturday the 4th of January 2025 and the title of today's reflection is going to be miscommunication. I must admit, right, it is painful and it is excruciatingly painful to work with

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other people. Like it's very very painful especially when the goals don't align, the lenses that we observe and we interpret reality with doesn't align, our language kind of like our communication origin when that doesn't align even in the best of settings it's quite painful. But you know it's kind of like difficult to you know it's what is difficult to work with other people. I don't know man, it's especially painful for me because me as an artist, having tried to be an artist and having had the desire to be an artist for I think at this point well over 15 years, I've come to the realisation that I'm very susceptible to the fragility

of my own ego. my ego is so naked when it comes to the realization that nothing is going to happen overnight. Nothing is going to come easy and there is a higher likelihood of us failing than it is of us succeeding at all. And my ego is very sensitive to stuff like that. These are all the things that my ego does not want to hear. And these are things that I kind of like recognize within myself because every single time I stumble into, let's say for example, an opportunity, often mastering itself as a problem, I tend

to effectively shrivel away, I get scared, I get worried, I get concerned, I start to doubt myself, I retreat, I procrastinate, I do all of these normal things. And again, you know, just the fact that I have this awareness is already what makes this painful because I often work with artists that don't have that awareness or don't have an interest in having that awareness at all. And you know, I'm not an expert here, I'm not a therapist, but usually it's these kinds of people that kind of like, you know, I tend to have massive, kind of, I tend to encounter so many problems with later on down the line because it's very difficult to have an honest conversation about where our limitations lie.

We want to be able to do everything, we want to be recognized for everything, and be given every single accolade for all of the things the amazing things that we've done And yet we shy away from like even even the smallest tasks just because we haven't done it before and just because it makes us uncomfortable but you know I Could talk for ages about collaborations with other people and working with other people and you know And I can open up on so much about that, but it's just um It's just a shame really, like, it's just a shame because there's going to be many relationships like you know going forward that are going to be absolutely, you know, they're going to go down the hill, they're going to go down the drain because these things are not often spoken about enough.