Low Battery Mode

It’s been a pretty exhausting day. Right now my mind is everywhere and nowhere at the same time, and I’m gonna convince myself that somehow someway that makes sense.

I guess what I’m trying to say is my mind feels scattered. My mind feels like a group of clouds all thinking independently of each other but at the same time thinking nothing at all. That’s what I mean when I say everywhere but nowhere.

I’ve been at work for the last 12 hours and secretly feel sorry for my bosses. It probably doesn’t affect them in the slightest but deep down, I know they probably wish all their employees could be serious about their jobs and the problem is I’m not one of those people.

I’m here because I have to be and truthfully every time I am here my mind is ALWAYS elsewhere busying itself with other thoughts. Other things that need to be done.

Today’s reflection is one of those things and writing my diary is another. Trying to compose a series of lyrics for an event I got coming up this week comes third and thinking about what I’m gonna wear is fourth.

This is the problem I guess with working a job because I to rather than working a job because I want to. I try to be good at the role I’ve been given but as soon as I get a minute to disappear I’m running away to focus on what I actually want to do. It’s kinda funny thinking back on today and remembering how I was trying to be in three different places at once.

All of this acrobatics because I’ve got bills I need to pay and a naive dreamer’s dream to chase. Lol at least I can say nobody forced me to do this.