Less you Feel The Opposite

Wednesday the 30th of April 2025 and you know yesterday was a little bit of an interesting one to be honest so even though like you know I've been feeling really pumped up you know and I've come to the realization that I have a wealth of content to dig into when it comes to

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kind of like you know sharing my life sharing my story sharing my journey reminding myself that I have come an extremely kind of like long way and you know the world that is relative to the people that know of me

see me understand me whatever it is have yet to see that um you know kind of like yesterday I felt you know I fell into a little bit of a slump. I don't know what it was. I don't know if it was a thing of like where, where maybe I felt a little bit tired. Maybe, you know, I was just kind of like,

you know, not really like, you know, not feeling myself or whatever it is. But yeah, like, you know, whilst I got into like editing one of my projects, just kind of like looking at one of my vlogs, you know, I got a little bit irritated. I kind of like lost my attitude a bit, you know, I felt a little bit tired, a bit slumped, like, you know, I, you know, in essence, I want to build Rome in as much as I value that I need to be patient, as much as I appreciate that I need to be patient, I wanted to build Rome in a day so bad.

Like so, so bad. Is because of the, I don't know, man. It's like, you know, the content that I have, like it stems over, like I want to say we're in 2025 now, so that's like 2018 it stems over seven years seven years of like things that things that I haven't spoken about enough things that I haven't put out enough and it's in abundance and it's

like the way I just want to literally just you know drown my entire like you know Instagram account with this content and really really just like I realized you know like I said for the past couple of days I've been holding myself back but um you know this morning I'm sort of like reflecting over that mood and I'm trying to be careful I'm trying to remind myself that you know as much as I'm searching for like this big you know this big kind of like feeling

or this big moment or this big change in my life where life feels good and life could never feel any better. I have to remind myself that the downturns and the slumps, they still exist. Like, you know, there's almost like this satisfaction that I'm looking for in life.

And, you know, there's almost like this satisfaction that I'm looking for in life that I'm not getting out of kind of like music so to speak but I have to remind myself that the satisfaction is there it's just that the reality of it is that just because I have those moments of joy those key moments of joy and you know I hold on to them with dear life just because they're there it doesn't mean that I'm not gonna be hit with those other moments where I'm not feeling myself

and I'm doubting myself and I'm slumped and I'm tired and I feel like I should give up. Like, you know, it's like what Little Sims, UK rap artist, Little Sims said, I'm not gonna lie, like, you know, Little Sims said, oh, like, you know,

I don't wanna be the one to doctor this, but if I can't, if you can't feel pain, then you can't feel the opposite. And it's just the reality reminding myself that, yes, like, you know, even though I do have like, you know, these, you know, even though I do have this realization and this happiness and this joy that I get from being a creative, it doesn't take away from the suffering that I'm going to feel and the slumps that I'm going to feel, it doesn't take away from the weight of the journey and how difficult it can get at times.