If Only They Didn’t Change Me

Sunday the 2nd of August 2025 I really wish that my desires didn't change me if I'm being honest I wish I could still be the same person you know without kind of like the desires that I have and desires the desires that I haven't obtained to be honest because it's often those

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desires that turn me into a nasty person and you know it's not I don't want to be a nasty person but sometimes like

Survival is survival and some of the things that I desire like I've got something to do with survival Or at least the balance the balance that you know We all so greatly seek balancing our finances balancing our relationships balancing whatever it is At the moment. There's just too much going on in my life, too much of bad things going on in my life and not enough of good.

And I need to do what I need to do in order to make, to bring about the change that is necessary. Like, for goodness sakes, like at my age, or at least the length of time that I have spent being alive, not only should I know better, I should also do better. And you know there are many things you know that are effectively

kind of like grappling me, things, habits, you know, situations that are grappling onto me, you know, things from the past, situations from the past that are creating the same result that I am so sick and tired of. That you know it's like, the change is necessary, the change is drastic and unfortunately without that change it's very I change it the change is necessary the change is drastic and unfortunately without that change it's very hard for me to kind of like continue living with a smile on my face like there are many things that I

personally cannot live with one of those things is balance one of those things is progression one of those things is self-improvement one of those things is just basically obtaining and becoming the greatest version of myself. Without that I don't know what I'm doing to be honest and yeah to a certain extent self-development can get a little bit toxic but you know what so can staying exactly the same especially when the life that I have now is demanding a better version of me each and every single day.