I Feel Hollow

Okay so Thursday 10th of July 2025 and right now yeah I'm feeling a little bit okay I'm gonna be honest about the way that I'm feeling right and at the moment I feel hollow but what do I mean when I say I feel a little bit hollow so in essence kind of like you know being or trying to

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effectively be my own boss. I'm basically kind of like running my own business, trying to build my own rap career. I need to find, I need to keep myself busy and keep myself occupied with things that make me feel fulfilled,

things that make me feel meaningful and things that keep my wallet full. You know what I'm saying fam? Things that kind of like keep my wallet kind of like substantial, so to speak, at least enough to effectively be able to kind of like, you know, pay for my bills and effectively kind of like face any financial adversities

that may come my way. And, you know, kind of like sometimes I get days like today really, where, you know, things feel very calm and I'm not very used to that, so to speak. I'm really not used to that because I feel like it almost feels like I can let my hair down a little bit,

but I'm not sure if, you know, it's an uncomfortable feeling. And it's something that I'm kind of like not used to, not having anything to do. And so when I begin to kind of like think about relaxing, right, which I think is kind of like a bit problematic.

I think, I don't think it's healthy. When I think about relaxing, I find it not difficult to relax, but it's kind of like, it becomes something very suspicious. It was almost like, you know, it feels like there's something that I've forgotten, or it feels like there's something that I'm supposed to do,

but I forgot that I'm supposed to do that. And then before you know it, or before I know it, I find myself like, you know, kind of like lagging behind in certain areas. And, you know, but again, the key takeaway from like today's reflection

is the fact that, you know, being my own kind of like artist, kind of like trying to build my own rap career, I constantly have to keep myself occupied with things that are meaningful and with things that keep me fulfilled and things that kind of like propel me forward and sometimes that's a difficult task in itself.