Nothing Worthwhile

Okay so Tuesday the 12th of August 2025 and right now I'm trying to convince myself that like you know unless I do the things that I'm not willing to do I'm in essence never really gonna obtain the things that I want to get so again this kind of that plays off of the expression

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that nothing worthwhile is worth kind of like nothing worthwhile is worth kind of like getting if it isn't difficult to get it in the first place if that makes any sense at all. But the funny aspect behind all of this stuff is in essence I'm convincing myself all of this stuff as of all of this stuff is, in essence, I'm convincing myself of all of this stuff,

yeah, effectively in me trying to become a rap artist, as though, like, you know, the option isn't to just effectively just be a normal person. Like, again, like, throughout the freaking years that I've been trying to effectively, like, put all of this stuff together.

I'm continuously asking myself, why is it that I'm not throwing in the towel? Why is it that I'm not putting up the white flag and effectively just effectively giving up? Because, you know, when something isn't working for a long time,

or when something isn't working consistently enough, eventually, surely you must be able to come to the conclusion that things aren't working out and you must pivot off course. But here as stubborn as I am, here I am still trying to carry on. Again, I'm not really asking for sympathy but for goodness sakes, I've had the website up since 2022, I've been posting on there for god knows how long, over 600 posts and

barely any of them have got any views or any likes and you know I mean I get it, I'm not fully fully kinda like you know committed because I'm busy in all other areas but I mean damn like you know surely at some point I must be able to look at this and say to myself like enough is enough and I should quit, right?