How Many People Will I Be

I’m trying to think about the best analogy that will describe what I fear will happen in my mind when I become famous. 

I’m imagining a statue shaped like a cylinder with four faces surrounding sculpted around its circumference; in other words this statue has four sides and four different faces. 

With that being said whenever the sun rises the sun will shine on a particular face, in turn overshadowing the face that the sun isint facing throughout the day. 

This is how I describe the way in which I interact with people. I think I have many faces, and the people I engage with on a daily basis all experience or interact with a different face of mine; in other words there are some faces some people simply never see. 

My fear is that when I do finally become famous and become visible to everybody’s naked eye, all the faces that I use will become exposed, and I guess I’m fearful about how people will react. 

This has happened to me once before a few years back. I went out with my friends and posted a few stories on my socials where I was leaning a little deeper into who I actually am whilst nobody was looking. I was surprised to get a message from one of my friends saying she was really thrown aback because it was like she was looking at a completely different person. 

What’s more worrying for me is when it finally comes down to it what face will I actually use? Or will all of them eventually come out at the same time?