Happening Against Me?

Saturday the 7th of June 2025 and you know as of late it's gonna be pretty difficult for me to talk about this one because like it's not really within kind of like my attitude or within my spirit to talk about the things that are happening against me or the things that are happening to me

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but nevertheless there are situations that do come up that do require me to act. Unfortunately, I haven't really placed the greatest, the healthiest amount of pressure on myself, you know, to be a great father, to be a great husband, you know, to be a great rap artist.

Those three things kind of like work against each other, so to speak. The father and the husband part are really kind of like more in synchronicity with each other. But often at times what it is that I'm trying to say is that in order to be like a great father and a great husband, sometimes I have to forgo having to be like a great artist. As a matter of fact, when I'm a crap artist, when I'm a rubbish artist, when I'm useless, usually those are the times where I tend to be a great husband and a great father and vice versa, you know, when I'm not like a great husband and a great father

that is usually when I am being a great artist. There is a situation somewhere in the future where kind of like all three things are going to be possible at once but as of late, like you know, in the current reality that I exist in yeah, like I'm currently kind of like getting beaten up at the moment, so to speak, like it's very difficult to accomplish all three. Unfortunately, I've never really been decisive. I've always wanted everything like, you know, like, you know, I don't just want I don't want option A, option B, option C, I want option A, B, C, I want all of

them. But it's been a bit difficult because it's like, you know, some things happened in the last couple of weeks. There's a situation that required me to kind of like adapt and just basically change everything and completely forego the progress that I've been making as you know, the progress that I've been wanting to make as an artist. And so kind of like here I am licking my own wound,

so to speak. It's very hard to kind of like give it a break, so to speak, you know, because every time when I'm not doing music, it feels like I'm falling behind, slacking, like not really putting my best foot forward. It's annoying because I've been working pretty hard to kind of develop my own sense of self-satisfaction.

There's a goal that I wanna reach and there's a place that I wanna be at that is gonna give me satisfaction. And it's like, despite the fact that I know where I wanna be and that I'm kind of like making steady progress to go Towards where I want to be that, you know I still get to do you know still have days that when I'm not doing what I want to do

Or doing what I need to do. I feel like I'm completely failing and lagging behind