Half as Much as Certainty

Saturday the 31st of May 2025 and I'm sitting down here wondering how people who don't have half as much certainty as I do really do get along with life. Like right now I can be certain that no bombs will fly overhead. I could Whereas other people don't even know how they're

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gonna feed their children. People in countries where places are, you know, people in countries where, like, you know, politically, and there's political instability, you know, everybody's at war. I recently read somewhere that, you know, people are being advised not to travel to Egypt because of political instability.

And it just has me wondering you know you know you know there's a person that I know that's got a family out there in Egypt and you know he spends his time working here every hour of every God-given day just basically trying to basically send money back to his family and you know it has me wondering you know how you know you know I've been worried because my car's been broken down and I don't know how I'm going to get my children to school.

And it's had me almost like a complete emotional wreck. And when I think about it, when I really think about it, I'm an emotional wreck. I'm an emotional wreck for two reasons. Maybe I'm not used to the stress. I'm not used. I'm an emotional wreck for two reasons Maybe I'm not used to distress. I'm not used to distress levels. I thought I was good. I was good with stress But when I really think about it I also recognize that it threatens my

Ability to push forward to becoming the greatest version of myself on a daily basis It creates a vacuum of distraction things that I now have to concern myself with. Because I need to, as opposed to using every hour of every God-given day to improve myself and face my greatest fears, which is also a challenge I need to do. The truth of the matter is that that you know I actually have a great big fear and that fear is um that fear is if I'm being honest

looking at you know is looking at my fear is again not maximizing my full potential but not because it would be a shame if I didn't maximize that full potential but for two you know for a two-part reason, one part is the fact that there are people, like what would the people who are currently in poverty-stricken, kind of like war-riddled countries,

what would they do with all the access to health, education, and the sorts? Like what type of lives would they live? Would they sit around and do nothing or would they live to their maximum potential. And two, I need my maximum potential. You know my life isn't perfect, it's not a bed of roses, there are situations coming up and even though they might not be in the immediate distance, like, I know that they're coming up. And as much as I do fear kind of like wasting my life,

what I fear is being in a position where I can't actually confidently leverage the life, you know, the demands of the life that I have now and the demands of the life that I'll have in the future.