Filling My Boots

Okay, so Sunday the 16th of March 2025 and this one here is really about filling my boots, right? Filling my boots or filling the boots, right? But I'm going to explain that analogy right this instance So, you know, I've talked, you know, I've spoken about kind of like Being 30 right

2:36

because at the moment I'm 30 and I've spoken about kind of like still wanting to pursue this rap career Which apparently for some reason it's kind of like frowned frowned upon because you know apparently there's this notion that if you're 30 plus and you're still rapping it's effectively not cool.

Which is something that I don't particularly buy into. I don't buy into that. I don't need to buy into that per se. And I'm going to explain why. My personal story goes like this. Like the reason why I'm 30 now and I'm still in the process of rapping is because I've

spent pretty much my entire childhood filling the boots, see I did say I was going to kind of like explain that analogy, filling the boots that my parents wanted me to wear and it had nothing to do with making music. It had everything to do with like you know being aligned with you know their cultural values, their cultural expectations, their religious expectations, you know which is effectively kind of like high education, high education, a career that can be bragged about within the African diaspora, for example,

law, medicine, you know, maybe philosophy, whatever it is, anything that sounds really fancy and smart, right? And then making, you know, X amount of money a year and being able, you know, maybe you're in the oil industry, maybe you're very good at mathematics or whatever it is. And I've spent literally my whole childhood, you know, living in accordance to what my parents wanted when it came to like the cultural expectations and stuff like that.

And I've had to war with that identity, right? Also, sorry, the identity that I wanted to fill, I've had to effectively kind of like, I've had this massive conflict of interest for ages. So now that I'm actually in a position where I'm free of all of that,

I have filled those boots to a certain extent. I have given my parents enough to brag about when they can talk about what I've done, they can also sort of like talk about what it is that I'm doing. I now want to go ahead and do the thing that I've always wanted to do. So it's like if I'm 30 plus and rapping, or let's say for example if I'm 30 plus and I'm not doing the thing that I want to do, I'm just going to

keep that cycle on. I'm going to give, you know, the children that I have, I'm just going to, you know, it's going to effectively turn into resentment because I haven't given myself the thing that I wanted to do so I'm not going to put that same expectation on my children when really and truthfully I'm just trying to break that circle. So you tell me, like honestly, if you ever end up listening to this, you tell me, is it really that uncool to be 30 plus and rapping?