Dirty Hands

All right, Saturday the 22nd of March 2025 and You know, I've got to be willing to get my hands dirty to be honest at the moment I find myself like, you know The sentiment that I have at the moment the way that I'm thinking of feeling at the moment is this I Find myself kind of

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like in a personal battle between the old version of me that effectively kind of like needs to make space for the new version of me in order to obtain not necessarily the results that I desire but the results that effectively you know the results that I need or to a certain extent in other words the old version of me needs to make space for the new version of me because the new version of me is more applicable for the situation that I'm in right now and you know I know I sound a little bit vague and stuff like that, but effectively, life is more demanding

than it used to be. Life is more demanding than what the old version of me can handle, emotionally, financially, physically. So I need to make improvements in all of those departments, especially financially. I need to adapt. I effectively need to become more efficient in the way that I make money, because unfortunately my time is not as flexible as it used to be or it's not as moldable as

it used to be. And unfortunately I am needed in multiple places, multiple periods during the week. And so I need to get my hands dirty and effectively acquire new skills, acquire new habits so to speak to be able to keep up with the demands of life and stuff like that. And you know, it's a bit of a, it's definitely an uncomfortable process, but I suppose being uncomfortable is a good sign.

It's a good sign, but you know, definitely I do feel, I do sense a bit of resistance because like, you know, I do just kind of like want to be comfortable and I do just want to enjoy my life. Like that is 100% how I'm feeling. I want to be able to enjoy my life and you know for what it's worth and for what it is and really just be able to kind of like be grateful for being alive but you know

until until I get to the point where I have made the necessary changes in my life I'm gonna you know I'm gonna have to encourage myself to kind of like stay on the trajectory that I'm on at the moment.