Conflict Of Interest

It’s a Thursday afternoon right now and it feels like I haven’t even lifted a single finger. I’m trying to find a way to make the most out of the time I’ve got left, but at the same time I’m still struggling to ignore the fact that I have been chugging away towards my work non-stop for the past, God knows how many days/weeks. 

I must admit I’m actually pretty content with where I’m at at the moment, and perhaps, as difficult as it might be to admit, that might actually be the problem. It’s pretty difficult to remain consistent and disciplined towards my work when things are working.

It’s usually when things are going absolutely wrong that I feel as though I need to fight because my life depends on it.

The problem is with the work that I’m doing is it’s like I’m having to pay attention to a lot of tasks that exist from one side of the brand I’m building to the other.

This is the reason why I struggle to feel as though I am in a position I can rest, as well as struggling to find a position where I feel that now is the appropriate time to work. As soon as I am able to stabilise the workload from one task, I am then met with another department in which my attention is required. 

I then get to a point where I continue to work so much so to the point that I find myself needing to take a long awaited break.

The best thing I can hope for today is an inch of movement towards tried to the ground. It’s very difficult to appreciate how far I’ve come when often at times and moving inch a day, but if I’m even able to move that 1 inch, I try my best not to be too harsh on myself. I feel grateful for being able to put my best foot forward.