Choose to Remain Present

Thursday the 5th of June 2025 and you know sometimes I really wonder why I don't just choose to remain in the present moment because when I really think about it peace is relatively easy when all the situations and the circumstances are set right and you know I

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could go into this uh into these details a lot but I guess I'll probably spare them for like another day but um right now in my current situation it's relatively easy to effectively find peace uh in my heart find

peace in the present moment but the truth of the matter is that I choose to concern myself um with things concerning the future and uh you and using the past as a means to effectively guide myself towards the direction that I actually want to go in, the direction that I want to be in. Which is effectively being motivated by the place that I don't actually want to be in, the places that worry me, the places that ar of like, you know, worry me, the places that sort of like arouse my fear. But the truth of the matter is, is that like, you know, if I go by the ethos of effectively kind of

like, you know, not worrying so much about the future, not dwelling on the past and remaining in the present moment, if I go by that ethos, I am not entirely certain that I would be kind of like, you know, motivated or even disciplined to invest myself into the future if that makes sense. So in other words, I always concern myself with the things, I always concern myself with the unknown. You know, the things that I don't know, I don't know. And so I therefore begin to kind of like build my structure around that.

I, you know, kind of like doing what I'm doing out of love, I'm doing what I'm doing and I'm sacrificing what I'm sacrificing because in as much as I can find peace right now, joy right now, success right now, satisfaction right now, love right now, as much as I can enjoy those fruits right now, unfortunately there are kind of like consequences to dwelling on these things for too long and not paying attention to the things that are happening around me. I have to go forward, I have to concern myself with things that really and truthfully if I really

think about it are none of my business but this is life, this is love, this is what sacrifice and commitment truly is.