Caged Animal

Wednesday the 27th of August 2025 and for some reason I find it difficult to be honest to talk about the way that I feel. I suppose I'm always scared of how you know my feelings or the way that I kind of like explain my feelings I worry about the way that they're going to be

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interpreted. I often at times don't feel like I often at times fear that the things that I express especially when it comes to the way that I feel are things that I'm not allowed to express feelings that I'm not allowed to 

have perspectives that maybe might be wrong flawed or whatever it is but for the most part I'm always paranoid about expressing the way you know the way that I feel and right now I suppose for the most part I kind of like I've done this to myself but at the same time I'm merely responding to the demand that you know I kind of like you know that I kind of like have in my life I'm responding to you know the court you know you know they did you know the developing things that you know the developing 

snowballing mounds of suffering that are effectively coming my way mounds of suffering that of course I do not wish to experience and you know I guess I guess I suppose what it is that I'm trying to talk about is I've definitely done you know a significant deal of investments like you know this year in you know 2025 I've you know made investments here and there and right at the moment I'm just 

disappointed and sad that I'm unable to follow through on those at the moment I am limited and I mean bound very much by my time not so much by my money but definitely by my time and I'm bound down and it feels like like you know it just feels like you know my desires are being dangled on a carrot stick right before me and I am kind of like locked in a cage just but a mere inch away from being able to grab though you know you know grab that desire and it's creating this difficult I guess you know this difficult strong negative emotion that I have to grapple with on a daily basis