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Friday, the 13th of um, February 2026 and um, I'm stood outside an hour at the moment, just basically waiting for my wife to kind of like, um, be done with the food shopping. 

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You know, as I'm looking at this Audi sign, I'm also staring over like this sort of like a hill. like, you know, this hill that's, you know, kind of like close by to the shop and you know what it reminds me of? 

It reminds me of this music video that I filmed, this music video that is still raw, unrendered, unedited, like literally, like it's just sitting in a hard drive right now, waiting to be edited, waiting to be polished and waiting to be put out. 

And honestly speaking, like, um, you know, if I speak honestly about the way that it makes me feel right now, it makes me fall unaccomplished. 

And I suppose that there are several projects like that that are sitting on my computer. And, um, the point that I guess I'm trying to drive myself towards is, um, the feeling of being held back. 

I'm learning to discover that, um, you know, when I want something, um, specifically something that I personally believe will not just benefit me, but benefit everybody that, um, kind of like uh, anyone that's close to me. I get very, very frustrated. by being held back, even if I'm the person that's holding myself back. Yes, I'm frustrated by that too. 

And I suppose that at the moment, there are several factors in my life that kind of like, you know, pull me in different directions and it's very frustrating to deal with that. It's teaching me to learn how to accept the way that the world is, um, the way that the world has been established by people that really do not care about the progression of mankind. 

But then also at the same time, kind of like teaching me to, you know, again, not to necessarily move with haste, but to move intentionally towards positions that give me, not necessarily the power, because it's not necessarily, it's not necessarily about me being powerful. 

It's more so about me being in a position, being in a position to help others and to kind of like, you know, continue the quality of life that we have been able to build for ourselves as human beings, over the many millennia, over the many 100s of 1000s, if not 1000000s of years. 

Actually, to be honest, I'm not even sure if we've lived that long. So I'll just say for the 1000s of years that we've been alive, but yeah, um, you know, I'm reminded to kind of like keep going. 

I reminded to keep pushing. I'm reminded to pursue my dreams. I made the world a better place.