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Is there ever a time, a second, a minute, moment or hour when I’m not thinking? I’m not exactly talking about your every day average human being degree of thinking either, I’m talking about the type of thinking where I am continuously analysing different scenarios and different means of accomplishing a specific goal. In other words, is there ever a time where I can actually switch off?

Not that this is the main point of this reflection anyway, because I’m thinking about a song that I wrote about a few years ago that touches on the idea of grabbing onto and letting go of special people in your life. 

This song got me thinking about how I’ve over the years connected and disconnected from people that in some ways I never really wanted to connect with, and in other ways I really wish I never disconnected. Does that make sense?

It’s also got me thinking about writing a blueprint or Bible almost that effectively outlines the whole essence of Made Eze as an artist: I want to deliver a series of content pieces that will enable my audience to really understand, not just who I understand myself to be, but how I understand myself to be.

Right now for example one thing that springs to mind is how I have always to perceived myself as some sort of symbiote when it comes to love and relationships. Being alone over the course of my life has become something that I’ve become very accustomed to whilst at the same time very unaccustomed to. 

If that doesn’t make enough sense, what I am trying to say is that I have lived through periods where I felt as though I could be alone for the rest of my life, and yet somehow I have found myself yearning for love and connection in periods during, thereafter and in between.

I’m really hoping I’ll be able to make something Meaningful out of this, because I know that there will be somebody out there who would really be able to benefit from it.