A Two Pronged Reflection

Boom now! Wednesday the 12th of February 2025 and I'm not going to lie to you, I sense a two-pronged reflection coming along here because I have an idea of what it is that I want to talk about but it's not going to be solely based on that idea alone. It might expand to, you

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know, it might expand into a bunch of different other ideas if that makes any sense. But I just wanted to kind of like touch base a little bit even though like at the moment I guess I feel a little strange and maybe it's not the feeling that is strange, maybe it's just the position

that I'm in that is strange. And why do I say that? Because when I look around me now and I reflect over the things that I desire so greatly, almost as though like I can't be happy without them right I'm happy without them I feel like I've obtained that level of contentment and that level of peace with myself with where I'm at in my music career especially life in general but my music career especially there was always a sensation that there was going to be an internal battle that I was gonna have to win

before I win any other battle and before I go into any greater detail with that I'm talking about like you know the battle to win my first mobile the battle to win my first rated award the battle to kind of like get recognition in my own see you know the battle to win you know to earn my first 10,000 pounds from making music, my first 100,000 pounds from making music, the battle to effectively achieve that life balance

that I've been trying to achieve. I always had this weird sensation and this sensation started growing more and more the longer I continued to reflect upon all of the things that I'm doing on a daily basis. That above all, the greatest battle

that I was ever going to have to win was the battle of internal inner happiness, inner satisfaction, inner joy, just being completely and wholeheartedly just absolutely filled to the brim with joy for the mere fact that I'm alive. Like, you know, I'm doing this, you know, I'm in the process of building my music career,

becoming that rap artist that I've always wanted to be. And the reason why I say it's strange is because I don't feel like I need any of this stuff. Like technically I don't, like it's just like, I just don't need it. I don't really, like yeah, don't get me wrong, I want to win a mobile but if I don't win

that mobile, so what? I'm still happy as though like I've won that mobile. You know? It's just one of those things where like, I'm not going to turn around and say that okay cool, I've achieved that level of internal happiness and now every single step that I take forward from this moment on, I get to have that happiness,

right? Have that happiness that I would have believed I would have only have been able to have had I obtained those things that I greatly desired. Now it means that every single step that I take in whatever studio, every frustration that I go through in a studio session, every single line that I write, every single microphone that I touch, every stage that I get on, whether it's got a crowd of 200 people, whether it's got a crowd of 2 people, heck, even when there's nobody in the crowd, because I've been practicing behind the scenes and practicing and listening

to myself and every single one of those situations, I get to walk into every one of those situations with this joy and this peace in my heart and that was the thing that I started to suspect the further and further I went along this journey because you know what decades could be invested into this thing you know and if it's if it's one of those things where I'm only gonna start to enjoy and have this level of peace and happiness towards the end when I've achieved

everything that I've achieved then I feel like that is where I've committed like the greatest crime against myself, you know, for not allowing myself to enjoy the freaking process. I know I've spoken about this at length before in my reflections, but this time is just a little bit different because the feeling is so different. I literally feel like I have a freaking, you know, like I have like a, you know, a fancy BMW sitting outside my drive. Oh, well. I don't even live I don't even have a drive. I live on a freaking in a semi-detached freaking house like you know

It's just one of those things that like it's a strange situation to be in like you know I Always felt like I was gonna basically continue to live my life with this cowl on my face until I started to get that achievement But it's just one of those things where I guess now I'm here you know and I'm so grateful and I'm so happy like not because I've achieved anything in particular but because I've

won that internal battle and if I'm gonna be sincere with anybody that's listening to this here I'm gonna say this to you like if you're an artist if you're a producer if you're anybody trying to make something out of like whatever it is that you've been gifted, out of whatever talent it is that you have, learn how to be happy first before you try to gain any sense of satisfaction from whatever it is that you think is going to give you that sustained happiness. I don't care if you think it's

going to take a hundred views for you to be happy. I don't care if you're waiting for 100 people to stop you on the road and say, hey I listened to your music before you start to smile. There is an internal battle that you need to win first and foremost and unfortunately, I fear to say that for the most part we've been convinced to believe that that battle should be won at the bitter end. What I'm saying to you now, that that battle needs to be won first and foremost before you even set foot, before you even begin to like plunge

yourself deep into the journey, before you take it as super serious as having to breathe, right? Even when you can't. I'm telling this to you right now, like that's the first battle that needs to be won. And I've been on this journey pretty much since I was 13 years old, you know, I'm 30 now and yeah, like obviously I've had a couple of things, you know, it's not exactly like your most orthodox journey. I'm meant to be in certain places probably like I would say 7 and a half years ago, 10 years ago. I'm still at the beginning because of circumstances, because of excuses, because

of self-sabotage and imposter syndrome. But it's one of those things where like man I'm just at this point where it's taking me what like plus 15 years plus to realize that the first battle that I need to win is my is basically kind of like that internal struggle within myself learning how to be you know internally happy because that content that level of content is just going to continue to burn throughout through the ups and the downs through the good times and the bad and I believe that you guys should be

absolutely striving to do the same because if you don't then the hell is gonna have no significance the heaven is gonna have no significance whether you're clinging glasses with like some of the top music executives or some of the greatest artists you've ever worked with or whether you're struggling to get people to listen to music to listen to your own music when you're standing on the side

of the road and nobody's listening to you if you don't have that internal happiness, the battle is lost, the war is lost and at the end of the day, you're just doing this for nothing. I just want to say, this has been your future favorite rapper, It's Made Easy and I really hope you guys have a lovely day man. Like and follow for more.