A Tempestuous Period

Okay. Tuesday, the 24th of February 2026. And I'm currently massively backlogged when it comes to my reflections.  It's a habit that I'm trying to escape, but at the same time, one thing that I need to do is accept that I'm currently living through a tempestuous period. like in every

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sense of the way. It's not as bad as, you know, what somebody would have been going through maybe a 100, 200 years ago. But at the same time, I have to accept that there's a lot that is really beyond my control. 

And I have to allow myself to effectively, you know, fail through life during certain moments. So one of the wins that I'm taking away from today already, even though we haven't gotten to midday yet, is the fact that I'm remaining calm. And I am keeping head fast to my goal, to effectively return back to centre, return back to my routine. 

At the end of the day, I'm always going to be at war with my shadow self, and for anybody who doesn't know what that is, it's essentially just always at war with a version of me that isn't necessarily aligned with my goals, and, you know, where I want to be and what I want to do. The truth of the matter is, is that I'm actually pretty comfortable. I'm pretty safe, and my body isn't designed for, like, you know, greatness, success, and all of these things and stuff like that. 

Like, you know, it is literally just designed and built for survival. So so long as those needs are met in the present moment, that is always going to be a resistance, so to speak. I'm always gonna have to be disciplined in that sense. 

But yeah, I suppose the main summary of today is that I'm learning, I'm really, I'm learning, not to, you know, not to panic, not to be distressed, especially when things aren't going my way, and there are going to be lots of those periods throughout my life when things aren't going my way, and sometimes I'm getting in my own way. 

So so long as I can just keep myself, uh, you know, occupied, keep myself disciplined, I should be able to, you know, get back on my feet and return back to my point of centre.