A Personal Reflections

Okay, so I want to say Tuesday the 17th of June 2025 and this is kind of like a bit more of a personal reflection. As I begin to shift my mindset towards something that effectively aligns itself with my core belief, like as I begin to associate with you know the truth of who I am,

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I'm beginning to realize that there are plenty of behaviors and plenty of things that I do, that in essence, are not kind of like really necessary, like there are

certain things that I stress over that are not really necessary. I mean, of course, you know, I am often troubled with worrisome thoughts, thoughts that effect can be worrisome. But the length effect can be worrisome, but the length of time that I dedicate to these thoughts sometimes are effectively not necessary.

There are a lot of behaviors that are not necessary. Especially kind of like, the thing is, okay, talking, kind of like peering a little bit into depression and anxiety, right? And again, I do sound a bit like a broken record here, but again, thoughts that effectively kind of like talk,

that effectively kind of like occupy the idea that I'm not worthy, the idea that I'm disorganized, the idea that because of the way that I am, I need to rush or I need to kind of like do certain things in a certain way. They're effectively not necessary.

Like for example, doubt. Doubt, as much as I can experience doubt, I can think doubt or I can think thoughts that cause me to doubt. It really isn't necessary. At the end of the day, what is going to happen

is going to happen and what I'm going to, and you know, what know the actions that I'm going to follow through are going to be the actions that I'm going to follow through. I don't need to think about what it is that I need to do I just need to do it. So why am I thinking about it? Why am I spending so much time dedicating you know why am I dedicating so much time to the idea of doing something as opposed to actually just doing it right right? Stressing about, you know, certain things and thinking about certain things.

You see, the thing is, like, through my appreciation of computers, getting to know information technology and how kind of like computers officially run things. If a computer doesn't need to do something, it's merely, you know, it's not programmed into it. Like, if a function is not necessary, they say necessity is a marvel of invention. If it isn't programmed, you know, if a program isn't necessary, it simply isn't built.

So I'm basically dedicating a lot of thoughts. I'm doubting a lot of things when really and truthfully, it isn't necessary. Like what does that doubt do? Well, here's the thing, if it doesn't do anything and if it kind of like it really isn't necessary, all I need to do is just effectively act and follow through. I'm gonna have a good day because I'm gonna do whatever it is that I need to do to get along to succeed and that's it.