A Bit Conflicted

Okay, so, Saturday 5th of April 2025, and I'm a bit conflicted, to be honest with you. I'm always conflicted, you see, because when it comes to my identity as a person, I feel a little bit fluid. There are certain aspects of my identity

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that aren't so fluid, like for example, my sex and my gender. When it comes to my identity in those kind of like categories, I'm very kind of like solid in certain places and stuff like that. But kind of like when it comes to like my behavioral

and when it comes to kind of like my social identity, where I'm from, kind of like my ethnic origin, where I was born, the places that I like to hang around with, the things that I like to hang around with, the things that I like to discuss, all of those things kind of like have a certain degree of fluidity if that makes sense and as a result I move around from place to place and I'm influenced by person to person.

You know and it kind of like makes it a little bit, I don't know, a bit difficult and a bit challenging at times for me to express myself with the utmost degree of honesty. Because whilst many other people, and the people that I effectively connect with, are very much kind of like certain in who they are, socially, ethnically, or whatever it is,

I've always felt like, you know, kind of like if you break down, you know, the simple basics of like what is a solid, and what is a liquid, and what is a gas, I effectively kind of like, you know, I feel like very much like a liquid, you know,

when it comes to my religion, my faith, when it comes to kind of like the people I like to hang around with, the people I don't like to hang around with. That is a forever changing form, if that makes sense. Life in itself is such a vast thing to be experienced that there never really is kind of like a foundation

to kind of like who I am and what I feel like. That I guess I'm a little bit of a chameleon. I change from time to time depending on mood, depending on season, depending on year, depending on purpose or trajectory of purpose anywhere. But yeah, it's nothing really to be figured out.

I guess it's just something to really be experienced, expressed, appreciated, acknowledged and in a certain way, I guess, lived.