Between Work & Rest

Wednesday, October 21st, 2026. There's a position in between work and between rest that I think I like to label as procrastination, and um, this is the thing that um, it often accomplishes. 

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It often robs me of productivity and it often robs me of rest. So then I am often sitting in a position where I am contemplating, ruminating, procrastinating or distracting myself from what I'm supposed to do. 

And essentially what this, what this does is it creates this very, um, uh, this very awkward position where um, I don't essentially get anything done in particular. Like nothing is accomplished. 

And because nothing is accomplished, when the time is there allocated for me to rest, I then struggle to rest, and so I try to make myself productive, to offset the amount of time I didn't spend being productive when I was supposed to be productive. So essentially what I call it, I like to call it like productivity and rest limbo. So it's almost like um, you know, I'm not getting the rest that I'm supposed to be getting. 

Uh, and essentially, I'm not getting the work or the tasks completed that I'm supposed to get completed. 

And so it's an interesting position to be, but at the same time, I also have to warn that it is a very uncomfortable position to be in. Um, you know, never really finish satisfied with the amount that's being done, and also depriving myself of the rest that I require in order to be able to be consistent with what I'm trying to do, is, you know, something that I, you know, I definitely wouldn't recommend. 

I think it's counterproductive. I think it's toxic. I think it can be quite damaging, especially in the long term basis, it can, you know, uh, it can effectively, um, it puts me in the, in the uncomfortable and the unhealthy, uh, characteristics of what people nowadays call them hustle culture. 

And fundamentally, like, yeah, like, It's not a place I essentially want to be in. So I want to work to effectively deal with such settings and effectively just improve, improve from death, to become more productive.