At Night
Monday, October 19th, 2026. It's currently like nearly 3 AM in the morning. And uh, I haven't gone to bed because there are a couple of things that I need to catch up on and uh, there are a couple of bills that need to get paid as well.
So it's all essentially like, you know, uh, work related, like music, work related. And I'm sitting here thinking about it, to be honest, because, you know, Like, I'm fairly certain that anybody who kind of like glamorises the idea of, like, you know, the music lifestyle, independent music lifestyle, probably doesn't consider the reality of, like, you know, having to be awake during times when one doesn't want to be awake, to be honest with you.
Like, as it currently stands, like I really don't feel terrible about it at all, I actually feel pretty fine.
Um, actually feeling pretty grateful and pretty happy. I mean, not necessarily happy about being awake at 3 AM in the morning, just knowing that I'm willing to do what it takes.
But I think the key lesson in this isn't necessarily about, it's not necessarily like another, like, you know, do whatever it takes and, you know, feeding into the whole toxic idea of hustle culture.
I think it's necessarily, I think it's essentially like a lessening self management, um, as well as self-development, if I'm being honest. Like, um, the reality of this, uh, this career and this path that I'm choosing, is that I really am truly my own boss. Um, the gift of, you know, effectively being an entrepreneur is that you do get to be your own boss and the curse of being your own boss is being your own boss.
So every minute and every 2nd that you slack or that you effectively get distracted and, you know, you know, you're not essentially kind of like holding yourself accountable is is costing you somewhere.
And uh, it's kind of funny. It's a massive contrast to the 9 to 5 that gets demonised so much where, like, you know, irrespective of, um, you know, the companies like struggles, you still get paid.
Um, irrespective of like, you know, whether the company does well in that given day, at 5 o'clock, you clock out and you don't have to think about it. Like, yeah, like in this instance, I am embossed and, you know, if I, you know, if 5 o'clock comes around in the afternoon and the job's not done, the job's gonna carry on until the job is finished and essentially, that's it.
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